my aims..

apparently,i'll be very busy for the coming years...yes...not months...is years...cuz i'll be
focusing on :

1. my piano practical exam
2. my studies in ACCA
3. will be working if i had any free time

my goals :

1. will be working cuz i wana buy myself a laptop before i'm heading to UK
2. a new car...yes,all by myself
3. to buy properties too
4. i wana build my own career...

so far,that's the plan for now...i'll be busy in my studies cuz it's tough and i wana concentrate...i remember after the 3months stay in UK,they also offer Master programme in Birmingham City...i dunno yet,but for now,i felt like i wana take it =) but who knows,i'll change my mind in the end..and who knows,i might stay and work there...

bout working,yes...i will be definitely but oni if i had free time and oni if there's event going on...work to build up my finance...to get myself a laptop...yes,the one and only LENOVO laptop of my OWN 1~!! haha...cuz currently,i'm using dad's...it's sooo business like...not suitable and he needed to use it...so i need to get my own personal one =)

bout my goals,i'll achieve one by one slowly in the coming years...after i bought the laptop,ofcuz i wana get myself my own car with my own name and own plate number~!! muahahha...as for properties,i'll get it as soon as my financial status is better when i have a career...

i know i know...i'm like planning for the future so fast already...but hey! that's me...one who think a lot,imaginative and also one who think of the future...that's why,i make me very "fan" at times...

will be having our TIA test tomolo...and it's the last day of this programme...will be going to dinner will ALL the mates after that...to take fotos..haha...i guess we're not gonna to meet till our convo...or we might...if we organize a gathering =)

bout bebe : he's been recovering already...but sometimes,he had nightmares till he screams out...and couldnt touch him from behind cuz he'll go shock and bite ppl unless he knew it...get well soon,bebe...

sickness : still the same...flu's been recovering but cough is getting worst...let's hope it'll recover ASAP...cuz i wana go play~!!! muahahhaa..

and now,bout my sweetheart...we had a long conversation on phone last night...as usual,i never gonna hung up first...NEVER~!! and he was silent all the way when i didnt wana hung up...so,i make funny sounds..."bloop bloop bloop bloop" hahha...like bubles...bie always laugh whenever i make this...lolz...

oh and dear xiao yuan,if you're reading this...i'm coming~!!! on the 3rd of may if there isnt any prob coming thru =) yes,be my tour guide and i wana take fotos~!!! not to forget,CLUBBING~!! haha...i'll hit wednesday...dun worry =) miss you loads...and i guess you knew why i chosen that date right? 1st,is because my class will be starting on the 17th...2nd,ofcuz...crashing with my sweetheart andrew's time at singapore...haha...but i might not be able to meet him oso mar...he need to work...so my time is yours...AND dun give yours ALL to stephen ar...leave some to me also K~!! haha...love ya~

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late for class today...YES...AGAIN~!!! but it's not bcuz of mrr2 jam...it's becuz of the stupid T junction there,the traffic light before my college there had a lorry break down...after class,me,wy and cy went to steven's corner to have our breakfast...went home right after that...

around 1.40pm,i went out...to wy's hse...to pass her the cake and take the software from her...after that i went to bie's hse...online and study a lil there...bie was sleeping...and he hit me on accident on my nose...nose bleeds right after that...i'm still in pain after a moment there...nose kept bleeding this few days...just like this morning at 5sth,it bleeds again...disturbing my sleep...sigh...just thought of sth...i always kena my bf hit one...why ar? before,it was louis,scratching my face...damn it...lucky didnt have scar...and now this..

took a nap...cuz i didnt have much sleep...after i woke up,i used bie's laptop again...open up one of his folders till i saw his blog's header...with evelynn...i wanted to delete it at first...on 2nd thought,i didnt...cuz i havent got his permission...and i open a folder where our comversation 1st started...it really shows how sweet he were by then...talking non stop with me...it's very diff from now...why ar?? why every couples oso like that? things that happen before they were together will be done lesser after they're together...sigh...

went home bout 6.30pm..i asked him to accompany me down...but he didnt want to...i was sad and angry at first...but on the way home,i had been thinking...that it was my wrong...why would i be so "xiu hei"?! i was suppose to not force him to do sth that he didnt want to...and for this,BIE I'M SORRY..

tomolo will have MYOB test...good luck peeps~!! =)

bie,i'm sorry that i pushed you and forced you to do sth that you didnt like...and the worst part is,when i'm angry at you for it...sigh...i'm sorry...somehow,i doesnt look like your understanding gf anymore...i dont know,my emotions are very unstable now...angry,frustrated,annoyed,depress and i even wana fatt pei hei~!!! wat came into me?! i'm suffocating for this =( suffering too...sorry sweetheart...i'm so sorry...

Day 7 - A moment spent

went to college early today to submit the car sticker renewal form...mrr2 was jam..last thurs too...wondered why...it wasnt like this before...hmmm...so i was late...i met up lynn then we submit the form together...after that,we went for breakfast at bobo

we saw kang pei,cy and ah wei there too...so we joined them...cy didnt go for lectures...she said she's lazy...ck didnt come too...BISHHH~!!! stupid ck...i know you're reading this...the class is damn sienz lar without you guys...and wy brought her new phone...busy with her new phone sending pictures and themes from my phone and hl's...didnt pay much attention too...in the middle of the class,sweetheart called me =) finally he went off work...he asked me whether wana find him anot cuz we hadnt been meeting each other for some time...i said i didnt want to at first...cuz i wanted him to rest...but then,he told me that he need not to...so i decided i'll go..

class ended...i went to meet up with stepmum...we went to carrefour to buy some stuffs...then around 2pm,she sent me back to take my car...by that time,bie called me...i was still in the car with stepmum...after i took my car,i head to "cat road" passing by brem mall...bie said see if can bump into me anot...i was hoping that he could...but traffic was slow moving at his side

FYI,cat road is the term i used when i was sms-ing with bie to indicate JALAN KUCHING...lolz...

i reached his place first ofcuz...i parked my car and i was planning to give him a shock when he reached...i'm looking at the pillars wondering which sud 1 sud i hide in...i wanted to hide in those which are nearer to the lifts but end up,i chosen the parking lot next to his...but planned failed...cuz when he reversed the car,he can see me by the mirror =(

when i was trying to unload his luggage for him,he stopped me =( all i wanted was to help him out a lil...but mayb it's just him that didnt like ppl to move his stuffs like how i am too...so i took a nap...was having headache...my sick,it isnt going anywhere...it's even worse =( bie snores a lot and he's very tired i know...

i woke up around 5 sth...started to online...busy looking for a piece of paper too...cuz i'm planning to leave him a msg and leave his hse without waking him up...i did found 1...after writting the msg,i placed it on his desk beside his bed...right underneath his phone...so that he can read it =) i went home bout 6.10pm...daddy opened the door for me...he asked,"andrew not yet wake up?" and i replied,"no...i dont wana wake him up...he just got back and he's so tired"...

i knew i should wake bie up from his sleep for tonight's setup...just in case he didnt set his alarm...i woke him up at 7.50pm...and i knew he slept back...at 8pm,i called again...
my blur dummy says,"i tot i called you already?"
i said,"yes...and you're sleeping back...wake up~!!"
bie, still in sleepy tone,"but it's not even 9 yet"
curious me asked,"i tot you said u need to reach by 9?"
bie replied,"ya hor~!!! okok..."

haha...he's just so cute when he's sooo blur...and i even asked him to say thank you...haha...i didnt do anything much...just finished up my excel work...and watch tv...and fetch sist back from tuition...

sickness : still the same...cough is getting worse...flu too...and my nose had been bleeding for 3 times today...ytdy did too...but wasnt tat serious...i dun wana see specialist...i'm afraid T.T pls dun bleed already alright? my nose bleeding isnt like normal ppl ones...it bleeds like a running tap water...non stop at all...i just dun wana go to the specialist...it's scary...

silly sweetheart,you wana sleep under my arms with comfy too,you can just tell me...hmmm...sorry bie that i've awaken you from your sleep which is not enough at all...finally,can meet you already today...even though it's a just a short while BUT it is enough for me already...another thing bie...i wouldnt felt left out...i understand bout your work life...so dun feel that way ok? love you,lou gong zai =P

Day 6 - Cheng Ming

continue from my previous post...woke up very early this morning...for Cheng Ming of cuz...it's so hot...damn~!!! we even gotta walk there becuz it's so jam...even if we use motor,it's still jam...sigh...luckily,our house is quite near...so walking wouldnt be a problem...

the men and boys took the stuff...we gurls just walk taking umbrella...haha...we've gotta go 3 places...sigh...so exhausted...we've gotta walk uphil...and CLIMB~!!! luckily i'm in sports attire...muahahahha...we went to the great grandpa and great grandma's grave first...after we're done,to our grandpa...which we gotta go downhill...there's a longer and smoother path to grandpa's...but aunt, didnt want to...so we took shortcuts instead...and it's so steep going down hills...plus there's river and slippery rocks...it's just like "kembara halangan",in english is called "land of obstacles"...finally we're there...when we're done,we've to go back to the other side to uncle's...sigh...so tired going uphill and downhill...but i enjoyed...just like old times =)

we went home after we settle everything...then,we go for breakfast..to eat BEEF ball noodle...haha..my fav...yes,i couldnt eat...but i still do...and it is in fact still my fav..lolz...then went home,played with bebe a lil while and be a potato couch...lolz...then i took a nap after that...my miad and 3 of my sist joined too..we're really worned out i guess...

had dinner at 6pm...FYI,i've been craving for soup and today i got 1...i'm so happy...hehe..delicious and satisfied with my dinner...after dinner,we went back to kl...we went to night market...cuz daddy wana exchanged sth...then we went home and i took a bath...when i was looking in the mirror,my expression was,"OMFG~!!!!"

guess wat...i got sun tan~!!! DAMN~!!! so dark...my face,neck and all round my hands...sigh...i'm getting darker T.T

right now,i'm here at dePastry Chef with louis...yam cha...this place is the place i first met my sweetheart...

sweetheart,it's still the same words i'm gonna use...i missed our memories,our jokes,our long conversations BUT i still miss YOU the MOST~!! i aint a sweet talker...you knew that...it's everything that what i wana tell you from my heart =) i love you~

Day 5

woke up early today for piano class...she gave me an aural book to asked me photostat to practice singing at home...she oso gave me another book to help her photostat...i did...i'm curious bout sth...i went to photostat,they asked bout my mum...i went to buy breakfast,they ask bout my mum too...why huh? why so kepoh? mummy had left home long long time ago...bout 3 years back then...i think i'm getting used of this feeling already...after all,divorce isnt sth new in this 21st century eh?

another thing i dun like...someone that i've been long never chat to,came chatting with me this morning...being a typical bitch as she is before...never changed...came by just to ask me,what my bf get for me and how i celebrate...i answered,"owh,bf was working..."
and there she goes again...making a real fuss around...saying how she and her bf celebrate hers and gave her flowers...she knew i never received 1 before...not in bouquet form...i was thinking,so wat?! ish~!!!
i didnt wana talk to her anymore...so i told her i gtg...before she can continue anything that's gonna hurt me...
i remember back then,louis gave me one pink rose...i was in form 4 that year...it's valentine's day...but that was long time ago...

i'll be going back to hometown later in the evening...for cheng beng...let's hope it's not that jam and hoping that tomolo morning will be in cloudy weather =) i havent pack anything yet...shall i bring my sports shoes back? hmmm....long pants and stuff...it's gonna be lotsa mosquitoes...

i'm still having headaches...will be taking a nap after i finish this and after i upload my pics...there's still lots...sigh...

sweetheart,enjoy your night at speedzone alright? i know you told me that might or might not be going...but i can sense,most probably you can go =) after all,it's just rehearsal...silly sweetheart,yesterday the msg i sent you,was wat i wanted to tell you...not being a sweet talker...i meant every word i said...and i'm glad that it made your day =)

Day 4 - Sick

no classes today...woke up bout 10 sth...lying on my bed...tossing round...then only i get up to bath =P found out that i lost my voice when i'm trying to talk to my dad...went out to buy breakfast for the family with my maid...i didnt do much today...watch tv...online...uploading pics into fb...and i'm having a severe headache...

took a nap at 5sth..woke up bout 8sth almost 9...it is ridiculous~!!! watch tv again...then went over to mum's...after that,i picked my sist up...went home and took baby out for a stroll,while sms-ing with sweetheart...it's been a very meaningless day for me...ntg much to do T.T

sweetheart,there's no need to apologize to me...i understand if you didnt talk to me much for these couple of days...you've been very busy working and there's a lot of things that you need to settle =) i'm here if you ever need me...no matter how late or early it is,i'll pick up your call...

counting down days till i can meet you...it's 16 days...but if i'm working,that's gonna be 20 days =( still a long way to go eh? it'll come =) take a rest whenever you can...take care sweetheart...

Random Day 3

i'm late for class today...really late..bout 15-20mins...sigh...MRR2 was jam...cant do anything bout that...so just stuck in the middle of the highway,listening to radio...

when i reached,i was in haste to my class...chit chats...after class,me,wy,cy and hl go for breakfast at old place...lynn can go~!!! =) was so happy...when me and lynn reached,we saw lotsa polices,dbkl and license investigator there...it was the shop next to it..big crowds...i didnt get to kepoh bout it cuz i need to pass my IC to abby...

while eating,we chit chats...as usual...they asked,"today is louis's birthday wor..." i answered,"yeap...then?" wy,"going out with him?"...i told her,nope...

and i told them,tat day,andrew and i sat at this very same table oso...haha...and you can guess wat's their reaction =P but i really am happy that wat he did for me mar...

me and lynn went home...as for cy and wy,they went for work...i uploaded a few pics...the ones related to my burfday celebration...it's still in the progress...line's freaking slow...

i'm feeling bored right now...not much that i can do...line's slow...sigh...such a dull day...

sweetheart,i've been listening to "Hey Soul Sister" again...i dont know why,everytime i listen to it,it reminds me of you...i'm missing you tremendously...it's been a very dull day for me...nothing much to do...i'm bored whole day...thought of going to genting to meet you up...but i guess i better not...cuz i know you're very busy with your work...and it doesnt look good with your colleagues there...

i dont know what i can do now...other than playing with bebe,or bring him out for a walk...wat else more? can time passed faster? my other mum called today...i guess you know who...she asked me wat present i want =) hehe...but i told her,ntg else i want now

I MISS YOU,MY SWEETHEART =( all i can do is,view back all the photos we've taken...there's so few of it...well,to me,it is...we shall take more fotos ok? i'm waiting for you to come back,bie...i'm waiting for you to try to squeeze some time for me...i know it hadnt been a good day at work for you again...i wished i could do sth to cheer you up...i wish i could...