vv moody

EMO

It's a moody day.As i had my microeconomics test today...was kinda worry that i couldn't pass.*SIGH* I dunno what had come into me....have been comapring myself with other girls lately,those perfect ones =( beautiful eyes,pretty ones and have a vv perfectly done body shape.


Have been dieting for a year....my bestie said compare to last year,i'm much better and have big difference....but i felt that it just not enough...just hope miracle could happen once in my life =(


it's so hard dieting like this...esp having a bf who kept giving pressures....dun eat this dun eat that...wtf...cant i have a break???? just for once? *SIGH* why is my life so suffering? =(

Disappointments

Today is friday...I was really very sad and disappointed on you..In short,i'm heart broken..You did not bring me out and you said that u had promise your frens that you need to go out with him.
I'm not being childish..I just want you to know that i'll not be here on the weekend,so can't you spent some time with me? Is it so hard? I just do not understand why you cant break their promises and you always break mine? You keep saying that i'm first place...but I don't think so...Is this what a 1st place would get??? I date you first but you rather choose your frens.
This is not the 1st time already..I had observe this a lot of times....I didn't want to compare me and HER....but......Why did she get to go to those nice places??? Why when you came to find me,you never bring me to a better place? It's always the same place~!! I'm bored and tired of the same place~!! I really hate you a lot~!!! You rather choose your frenz,other ppl and other gals than choosing me....I'm really disappointed on you~!!!
It's just so hard being your gf...I always get scolded by you...even just a lil small mistake...and you say that i'm immature & "ye man"...Is it wrong if a gf really wana see her bf????

Flying Fox day

Today we played flying fox...I was very excited..It was bout 8 floors high...I shouted as loud as i could when i need to "melapor"...I was shivering as it was very scary...everyone below can hear me...I'm so embarassed...But i had fun...I wana do it 1 more time,but all trainees were allowed to do once only =(

my NS and my confused feelings

Been into NS for the past 2 weeks and was back for holidays.It was a memory that i couldn't forget.My friends who is in the same hostel as me,celebrated my b'day...I was too shocked and touched at the same time.My tears roll down as my friends bring the cake to my front.Our coach celebrated with us too^^ It was a memory full of surprises and worth to be remembered.
I reached the airport today in the afternoon.I thought i would get another surprise from my bf....but as i expected it,even a single present i didnt get.
I had been thinking the whole day...should we be separated for some time?? I kept comparing how he treat other gals and how he treat me.
ESP the gal tat he likes which makes us broke up the last time....He celebrated her b'day and she had a present...
WHY i'm as his gf,he didnt plan anything for me?? He did promised me for I want a surprise....I feel horrible and disappointed.Now i truely understand the meaning of FORGIVE BUT NOT TO FORGET...Both of us did sacrifice in the past..but in love,it doesnt count how much u sacrifice and how much u gain it back....
I STILL LOVE HIM but still comparing his past...I feel sorry to him.

confused emotions

It's been quite a while since i write this things...I couldn't explain how and what I'm feeling right now..Many things happened today and all my emotions had been mixed up...
I was thinking bout my bf that i'm having now...should I break up with him? Will I be happy after I do that?? Does he really love me?? Will he repeat the same thing again? All these worries me a lot..Especially having a third party..
I do feel wasted if we just break up like this...I've waited for 6months++ for him to come back to my side...but love isn't how much you sacrifice and gain how much back...
Is it I'm the 1 who's been thinking too much? Should I give both of us a chance?? I dun dare to go through the damn suffering feelings again...I know this is very unfair to him...But is the only way to protect myself..Time will prove whether we suit for each other...

开心

今天真的很开心^^ 因为可以在你家过夜=)
也因为可以和你在一起。我觉得自己很幸福当你帮我打扮时。我们一起去Genting。虽然你没脱我的手，但是能和你在一起我已经觉得满足了。

Happy Valentine's Day

Today is valentine's day.I wasn't happy at all.A lonely valentine for me =(
You didn't date me out.I had given you all the hints but I'm not sure whether you get it or not.