Eng Speech Day & 6th Month...

Monday 26072010 : today is muah speech day! yeah...that was my attire for the day...well,tutor did say wear according to our own topics...the uniform was suggested by my tutor...

it had been so many years since i wear the school uniform...i look like a weirdo but it sure does brings back the memories...upon reaching the college,i walk as fast as i could cuz ppl just kept looking at me...and when my mates arrive,they laugh at me -_-" ish~!! but i'm used to it,being an entertainer =)

Mr Johnny also suggested tat i sud tied in two...but hello,no way~!!! they'll laugh even more...speech went on smoothly...he even asked me to wear until classes ends...GOD~!! no i wont!! but i'll take fotos...there're more in fb =)

college bullies~!!!

*punishment* =P

Tuesday 27072010 : a date with lynn...to....the gym...hahah...it was a clubhouse nearby our college...the gym was erm...okay? yeah,it was...but the equipments were old...they had a swimming pool too...but it's just too small! after the gym session,went off to breakfast at BRJ...the well known famous mamak in wangsa maju...

Thursday 29072010 : it is the day i met him once more...yes and i tot the other day was the last i met him till he came bek home from work from SG...i went over to help him pack his luggage...returning his lappie as well...

i felt kinda bad and guilty that my arrival had wake him up from his sleep which he hadnt had one in so many days...the one night tat he could sleep...even just for a few hours...my plan was to pack his luggage and leave right after tat...but who knows,his start work time changed from 3am to 12am...which means,no more sleeps!

me,feeling depressed,emo and angry,was treating him in a cold way...in which by answering some of his questions in a so not well-mannered kind...there's just so much things going on in my mind which i haven cleared it out...talking to his cousin,did help a lil...but still,talking to him is the best solution...i opened up myself to him and yes,it really did help...i'm lighten up

we left home together...i never thought that he would ask me to miss him...bcuz,it's usually i'm the one who said it...deep down inside,i'm happy =)

Friday 30072010 : as i said before,had been very emo for the whole week...spending the whole night talking to denise,his cousin...conclusion was as above =)

Saturday 31072010 : having a FR test today...god damn it...i dun have enough time to do it all...but i did answer everything...was so freaking tired...

ntg much happen this day...just a yam cha session at night...and that's it for my saturday night...the coming week will be very torturing for all of us!

Another note :

Happy 6th Month!

yeap indeed it is...the 6th month of Him & Hers =)

it's like time really do flies,eh? all of the sudden,i felt like "so fast 6th month d?!" lolz...

to him,my happiness is the reason he smile...

but to me,i had my happiness because of his existence...

tho he isnt there by my side most of the time...due to his schedule...

but he is always there to make my day...

no matter it is just a call from him...

no matter it is just a message from him...

no matter it is just an online conversation with him...

no matter it is just a video call from him thru skype...

he is still there to make me smile~ ♥

The Cruelty of the Realities!

Fantasies had just over and now it's the time to face the cruelty of the realities!

coming up next was all the coursework tests,assignments and presentation...damn!! piling them all up at the end of the sem really gets us frustrated and it's a bit of a rush...

well,we couldnt complain much...we can only do wateva we're told to do so and furthermore it's required by the course =( sigh...this is life...

Tues 20072010 : it was a class-free day...decided to go for gym and then off to look for sweetheart...but i didnt wana wake him up as he do not get to sleep much...so i went over to tortoise's house to do some FR tutorials as i'm presenting the next day...and we even went for breakfast...sorry sweetheart,for keeping you waiting...bought a breakfast for him...

we watch a movie called "Losers"....and still,tho time doesnt allow me to spend a longer day with him,but it's better than nothing...at least i still get to see him,tell him stories,hug him,kiss him and all =) he's off to work and i'm bek home...

college days were as usual...BORING~!!! and wat i hate most was,ASSIGNMENTS! everything piling up at the end of the semester! Damn it! POOR MANAGEMENT!

Sat 24072010 : only up till today,i get to talk to the loved one...he was busy the whole week...he went off work early in the morning...and i went over to hug him to bed...i get to watch him sleep in a close distance...touched his face and hair,to feel his arms around me once more...he had to work in the afternoon at 3pm...so we ate our brunch at the same place again =)

then at night,i went out with my NS fren...him bringing his gf along and asking me to be a spotlight...damn wtf wei! ish! went to pavilion for dinner ^^ FINALLY i get to go to pavilion after a couple of months of not visiting there...they're having sales but i'm not interested!

after the dinner,we took some photos at the main entrance...i'm just sooooo lazy to upload it now...later ba...was happy to see him too after 2 years =) and he said,"i would like to spend my whole life in camp" haha...for me,i love it as much too including when every1's the same,the coaches,the trainees there and so on...

i went off to mont kiara for a yam cha session...ca guo was late! and he tot i'm crazy cuz i make up just for a yam cha session...but he'd mistaken me for i went out before that...ntg much...was so tired after that...and i guess,i fed lotsa mosquitoes too...

Sun 25072010 : was preparing for my english speech for the next day...so tiring...god! when i'm done with everything except for memorizing the script,i straight went to take a nap...cuz i just cant stand it anymore...

sweetheart ring me up when i'm still sleeping...well,good news was,i get to see him again =) went over to his hse...then off to midvalley for movie and dinner...movie was "Streetdance" and as for dinner,we went for carl's junior...

i guess this is the last day i'll meet him till he gets back from work from singapore...it's going to be a very tough month for me,i knew that...because,i've never been separated from him for more than a week! plus,there's lots more i need to do in my studies!

but,i guess Lord has other plans for me...as my ACCA exams are on the same month too...i'll be busy preparing for it...we're both busy at our own stuffs...

i guess it's good too...to have separated a while...at least,a lil spice will be added in it...i'm in hesitation actually...

i so wana see him before he went to singapore for a month...

but at the same time i dun wana see him because i'm afraid that i'll feel reluctant to let him leave...that is why...

anyway,i'm still planning to go over to his hse to help him pack his luggage cuz he's just soooo busy till he even asked jie to help him pack!

hoping that the particular month will pass by faster!

The Happiest Week~

A very quick summary of last week...

dated 111072010-17072010

A movie night on sunday,11072010 with sweetheart and cy...watching Despicable Me...
I remembered very well that the next day,during lectures break,i drew this :

yes,it is that Minion from the movie of Despicable Me =) cy's expression was like -_-" swt~!! hahah...but i just couldnt help it...i love that movie...

on Wed 14072010,the first time ever,i visited this connaught,cheras night market...the longest ever...sweating like i just showered like tat...sweetheart was holding me all the time,never letting go...cuz there's just so much ppl tat he's afraid i'll go sesat from him...but i'll be going back for sure...

staying over his hse for the night...having him to be my side for the whole night,i felt so warm...with his arms around me,i felt so secured,so comfortable...the happiness i felt,is beyond words to describe...

waking up on Thurs 15072010,we had a breakfast date at a place which both of us love! he dropped me off by tortoise's hse and off he went to work...and as for me and king kong,both waited for the tortoise! MEMANG TORTOISE i tell you! lolz...class was as usual

Fri 16072010,we went to sungei wang's green box for a sing k session with the new mates...it was called the ice breaking session...cuz we just knew each and everyone else...except for those who had been in the same class before...we did do lotsa crazy and silly poses for the cam...i'm waiting eagerly now for the photos to be uploaded...

And when we're going home,me and sweetheart bump into each other on the roads...amongst all the possibilities,CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! it sounded dramatic,but it's true that we really did...and we winded down the window and even wave hello! ♥

Sing k session with new mates~

Something i drew during lectures break!

Sat 17072010,it was my big day...the convocation for my diploma studies...after 2 years of studying...was very happy indeed...we get to meet all our old mates whom we missed sooo much...we took lotsa photos with lotsa jumping and running...i sweat a lot before the ceremony starts...well,part of it was because i'm a very easy-kinda-sweat person...2ndly,cuz we did walk here and there,jumps and runs...

Flowers from sweetheart & daddy

Kicks from DAC 1

Jump for joys ♥

that was bout my Convo...and sweetheart did came...he gave me this bouquet of roses...i dont know why,but seriously,i'm loving it a lot...maybe it was because he's the 1 who gave it to me and the flowers do look pretty!

we went over to 1u to have din din and watch movie...for din din,we went over to Pasta Zanmai...deee-lii-ciouss~!!! yum yum! i'll be going back to try the rest of the dishes...for movie,we watch 2 movie in 1 night...we watched,"Predators" first then oni "Inception"...

i rate both movie 9/10...For inception,u've really gotta be very attentive on it...or else,u'll get lost whether it's a dream or a reality...and it need some time for ppl who're slow to digest and to understand it...this movie was really loooong...it's 2 and half hours! gosh...i was sooooo tired that i went home,removed the make up,and straight to bed!

it had been the happiest week for me =) i've got sooo much things that i had ever wanted...i've got a bf who loves me,sayang me and all...i've got frens to laid on...i've got my happiness...in fact,the most in amongst everything that happened this year...this particular week =)

The Night Market

14072010 (Wed) : been to class as usual...i'm late,very very late...by the time i left my house,i'm suppose to be at class...but roads are clear and i guess luck had been my side for today...i've found a parking lot in a very short time...even after breakfast,i went to park at the sports complex,i found a parking lot in a short period too

tortoise and king kong came over to my house...waiting for me to pack up,bath and all...the purpose of them coming was to scan faces to my dad so tat he allows me to stay over her house when i ask so...apparently,when i reach home,he isnt there...so that's that...

thought of bumping sweetheart on the roads...but he asked me to change course due to the congested areas...but still,i'm stuck at the same "cat road" for more than an hour...for bout 2 hours only we reached her place...that was 8.30pm..

we had din din...didnt eat much...after eating,we get ourselves prepared...i was thinking whether to tie my hair or not...then i decided a NO for it...gave bie a call and he came over to fetch us...i was happy to see him...the reason he's coming along was only one and that's me =)

there's no place for us to park but still,we found 1...he hold my hands very gently and he even took my 2 in 1 phone wallet to put it in his pocket...i snatched back cuz i didnt want him to feel "kekok" with it...but still,he's my man =)

he never let go of me the whole time till after we've done walking the night market...ca guo did join us too...he bought soooo much foods...as for me,i had a drink shared with tortoise...everyone were busy getting sth...but not me...i'm just looking around...they even sell 16GB pendrive there...

i wonder if it works and how much it costs...cuz i need another 16GB of pendrive tho i had the same one...which reminds me to buy an external hard disks for my sweetheart...it'll be more storage and more convenient for him to work since he's always moving around...

we've been walking for almost 2 hours and that's only half of the whole night market...i'm sweating so much that i gotta tie the whole hair up...bie said,"Samurai"...lolz...i love walking with them tho it's a bit squeezy there... i'll be going back there if i had the chance...thanks sweetheart for the time =) thanks tortoise and king kong for accompanying me =)

dropped bie off at his home and i drive off his car to tortoise's house to finish that MYOB exercises...it doesnt took much time...but maybe turning on the pc,waiting for the software to load and so on,that took the time...i rush back as soon as i can when i'm done...giving him a msg that i'll be home...

him telling me that the corridor is dark,i totally freaked out...i asked him to wait for me outside cuz i'm afraid of the dark...he waited for me at the car park and we walked up together...it's scary tho! reached home and prepare for bed...such a tiring night...few mins before bed,i was looking at his photos in his phone...all sorts of photos,his ex(s),his works,the randoms and etc..went to bed right after that...

Thursday : woke up at 8.35am today...bath and pack up my stuffs as i'm going back home today...when we're done,sweetheart and i went to have a breakfast...the place where he likes as how much as i do too...

he fetched me to tortoise's house cuz i parked my car there and he gotta go to work,as for me,to class with my mates...a very usual day at class...except for that air conditioner,it's as tho,it is colder today...

sweetheart came over to pick me up for a drink session after he went off work...catching up the old time as he's busy before this...VERY busy! but i'm happy as well...cuz i get to spend time with him =D

16072010 (Friday) : had breakfast with mousey and king kong at steven's corner...then we went for lectures...after that,we had plans with the classmates =) it's good too...at least we can bring our frenship closer with the new mates...we went to GreenBox for a sing k session...

frens who attended were hl,cy,wy,ck,le jun,su jun, jojo,su cheng,sook yeng,charis, jl,chee pin and chai yong...in total,it's 14 ppl including me...so we got the big room...we took photos before we left...there's so much silly pose of jl that made me laugh...gosh! the trademark laugh came out this time and the new mates heard them...

kl was super jam...so we decided to use the MRR2 route to go back to college...guess what...this is the part that made my day MOST! i bump into sweetheart when we're driving...he's at the opposite road and we even wind down the window and wave =) that was bout 6.06pm

Amongst all the possibilities...

Amongst all the road,we both used the same highway...

Amongst the time,he was off work early...

Or else,we couldnt bump into each other...

to him,it wasnt call fate...because,to him,fate was made my one's himself,not by Lord himself...

but to me,it doesnt apply in this situation...i just felt so much coincidence...

I'm happy ofcourse if you asked me...

hl and wy was being tortured by my "syiok sendiri" and "rhetorical questions"...pity them...

lolz...but i just cant help being that way...cuz i'm just too happy that i smile inside out...

tomorrow's my convocation...it's nothing special to me...cuz it's only diploma...unless if it is adv diploma,degree or master...it's going to be a photography day =) i'll be doing a mask later on...i wana be on my best tomolo

will be continue-ing tomorrow...

BebeJezz is signing off right now~

Reveals...

It is time to blog again after a hectic schedule...well,half of it was over already...my piano examinations,yes,they're over...i am in fact very disappointed in myself...i made lotsa mistakes =( i really hope i could pass the exam orelse i needed to resit it again and all efforts will be wasted...

FRIDAY : we had a proposal letter test today...actually i've done it very last minute...as you see,i've spend most of my time sitting on that chair and practiced my piano pieces...so searching for info,i've done it the day before...and the drafts,it was an hour before the real test...well,i have confident in this 1 but results are yet to be out soon...

at night,me and chai yen went over to cheras for a drink session with tortoise...it was drizzling by tat time...pick her up at leisure mall and we went to a hawker centre called "small genting" which is nearby the petrol station in cheras,not the 1 at ampang...

we were talking a lot...planning the plans for the next day and the wed "hong lok" pasar malam...sweetheart gave me a call,which i am totally surprised...cuz i tot he'll be working till late and i never thought i had the chance to meet him =)

i fetched tortoise back home...her hse was full of frogs and we even saw 1 before entering her hse compound...while walking in,she frightened me,"there's a frog~!!!" i almost yell,heart was jumping fast and i hold on to her...then oni i found out that she was fooling around...bishhh~!!!

dropping cy at tortoise's house,i went to bie house...finally,i get to meet him! the first thing i did was to manja him all over and he smiled...his whole family was still awake..yana was there too...the cute 1...

we watched anime...surprisingly,sweetheart did "tepet" me...i was happy of course...he hug me and i felt soooo warm after a week of apart-ness....i'm going off early as well cuz he gotta work very early the next day and i didnt wan cy to wait for me for so long...off i went after the anime...

SATURDAY : it's a shopping day for all 3 of us,as planned...actually,the main reason was that king kong wanted a new watch,so we accompany her...woke up early in the morning,prepared and off i went to fetch both of them...and yes,i went all the way to cheras and come back here to 1u...

well,i dun mind actually...we're frens after all and once in a while...i bet she'll do the same the next time too =) roads were a lil congested...i'm driving manual you know~!! goshhh!! imagine after walking for whole day with heels...

we reached 1u and the first thing we did was :

yeah! that was it and we start searching for her watch that she wants...but we too,do a lil shopping at apparels shop...as for me,you know,the usual 1,i went to shoes shop...i just couldnt resist...

we even went to a lingerie shop called "La Senza"...GURLS,there's SALES~!!! i wana get undies and some pyjamas there...but later,not today...

there's this shop called "Blay"...i went in and start looking for something which attracts me...there is this heels,i almost wana buy it all 3 pairs with different colours...but too bad,the black was out of stock...so off we went =(

there's 1 watch caught cy's eyes...but she didnt get it cuz i guess it's a lil rush...then off we went to city chain to get her old watch repair and we even went to Vincci...okay! this 1 definitely caught me...i want that heels badly~!!! i'm waiting for the price to drop,cuz it's a lil not worth...

we went over to ikano tesco there...to get my sweetheart a phone cover...i got this very special 1 with horns...unique i felt...and i guess bie will definitely love it cuz it's special...looking at the length,it totally fit his phone...as for the side buttons,i forgotten how it looks like so i just buy it...

fetch tortoise home right after that...king kong and i was planning to go over to pavilion for dinner and as well walk around cuz the last i've been there was the day before my birthday...i couldnt go there as often as i used to...firstly,i'm having a hectic schedule...secondly,bf dun love it there (midnite)...so i guess,percentage of going there with him would be very low...

but we changed our minds...we went to gei tak sek...cuz king kong wanted a "fa sang wu"...a dessert made from nuts...she couldnt have it when we're there...we're too late,it's sold off...after dinner,i fetch her back to her hse to get her stuffs...cuz she's staying over...

SUNDAY : woke up super duper early..she was craving for breakfast...so she woke me up...we went over to mutiara damansara to have that famous shredded chicken noodles..

after breakfast,she watched movie at my hse..."Being Human"...i felt a lil sleepy after that,so i took a nap until sweetheart reaches...went out to have lunch with him...when i'm home,i'm finishing everything i know how to do and my answers to be presented the next day...

as discussed earlier on,we wanted to watch movie..."predators" will be screening today...we went after dinner with bie...but there's no more good seats =( so we watch "Despicable Me"...ppl,it's a good movie...go watch it!

bie fetched us home after the movie...as usual,when he's driving,i always look at him like i couldnt anymore...well,in other words,it's called appreciating every seconds i have with him..

it's FIFA final tonight at 2.30am...and i'm supporting Spain...nope,i dun trust Mr Paul...but seriously,i've got an instinct that it'll be Spain =) furthermore,they played well...and when we read the newspaper the next day,Spain WON~!! hip hip hurray!!

sth Him & Her shared everytime they watched movies

MONDAY : it's monday again...i dunno why,but i just feel good...i had fun in english class but there's a time i went sleepy...Mr Johnny was like a comedian...he kept making me laugh,doing all sorts of acts...lolz...

went out to get our breakfast with mates...this time we went to try sth new...well,it's not bad there actually...the environment was good too...price are so so...in short,we'll be going back there again =)

lectures didnt go well for me today...i dunno is it just me or Mr Michael wasnt teaching good...cuz i'm sleepy as well...wondering for a few seconds,then cy looked at me and say "He teached till very confusing today,eh?" and i nodded...

we went for a swim in the college clubhouse...luckily it didnt rain...but there's activities going on there...so you see,the pool is full of boys and gurls =( i just hate it...call me selfish,but i prefer to swim with only my mates around...even when i go for jogs,i prefer doing it alone...i just dun like the way ppl look at me...that's why i prefer to exercise without any other ppl around...

went to cy's house to bath and wait for her to pack...she's staying over again...at night,I met my mum...telling her that i wished to add dancing back to my life...she suggested a few for me...yoga,pilates,cardio dance and even belly dance...i had 1 in mind too,which is ballet...but i'm afraid that i've forgotten the terms for everything such as the moves and dances...

TUESDAY : went to college to collect our graduation gowns for this coming sat's convo...i hope bie,mum and daddy would come...but mummy's working,daddy might be fetching sist too =( and as for bie,he might and might not come...so i'm alone =( but i guess it's alright...after all,it's just a diploma convo...not a big thing also...hope if daddy come,he'll get me flowers...haha...tat means,the first man who gave me flowers was daddy? or maybe a lappie as a gift?? can can? pls...

when i came back home,i put tat gown on...my younger sists say it looks like harry potter and i was like -_-" hahha~!! i loveeeee the gown lerrr...and lucky us can find a XS size gown...muahahha...

dancing was my passion...it is still,right now...that is why i'm adding it back to my life...but for another reason as well,i hope to make myself much more busy,socialise and all...

his schedule,which i really wana know even though it's a subject to change everytime...but after listening to what he say the other day,"....i rather you not to know my schedule than seeing you disappointed and have a thought that i dont have time for you....." it even makes me more curious...

i dont know why,no matter how busy i am,there's a portion of my brain would be thinking bout him and my heart would be saying that i miss him...i guess i really took him much more important than i thought...

let's hope i wouldnt be falling this time...cuz i know,this time,if i do,i wouldnt be waking up and standing how i used to anymore...

i cant wait for tomorrow's night market...it's my first time there you know...lolz...i know it sounds unbelivable...but it's true...no rain pls...let's hope everything will be going on smoothly

The Fifth...

It's already the fifth month?
Yes,it is...
and as usual,he is always the forgetful one...but i understand his workload was one of the reasons that he didnt remember,and the other reason was because there isnt an end for us...that's what he said and which is what i gotta noe too by today...
we had a deal that the next time i wouldnt say it out nor wish him...so i guess,this time would be the last until the 1st year anni comes...

something i've learnt today from him...
"to never think of something that haven even happen and that is to prevent unnecessary sadness"
at first,i was fighting back all his points by mentioning the future,but then...
i had a second thought...i felt that he got his points too...at least,i wouldnt be sad if anything happen and ruin the future plan...i was,in the past i meant...so depressed,upset,all over that relationship which i tot it would last till the marriage...but things really do happen...and everything change...

a past is a past...at least i'm happy now with him...
things are changing from time to time...

the examination i'm having,it's coming very soon...just a couple days more..i'm nervous ofcourse...till i couldnt even get good sleeps...dress code was a 1 piece dress...i've selected a few,but it is yet to be decided...i'll be going to class after that...and i'm very much afraid that my frens will joke around cuz of the dress...i mean,who wore dress to college...it's not just ordinary dress...it's those kind which u see ladies piano performers wore...

Just wish me luck =)

believe it or not,it's already half sem gone...but i dont feel a single thing...i mean,i felt like the new sem just started only...
anyway,after that exam,i'm going to partay~!!!
or maybe a day out with georgey and with whoever wana join...
sweetheart will be busy till september i guess or maybe till begining of next year?
i've gotta make plans for myself to pass my time...
it's still a subject to change,but clubbing is on the top list amongst all =P

I could really use a wish right now~

Happy 5th Month,Dear!

looking back to the past,

looking back to how much we've been thru..

it wasn't easy but i know that i hold on because..

i love you...