It's ironic isn't it when the last post of my blog was bout our lil sweet stories?
The time has come for us to go on a separate path...
No matter how reluctant I am, or how much grief I have in me,
For this man, I would need to let him go...
Yes,I'm predictable...
But, he knew me well too...in a sense that, I can never love anymore...
Not at this point...
It hurts so much that when he wanted to leave but he couldn't
and for that...i decided to lift up his burden by taking back my stuffs in his closet and the set of our memories (photos)
But I made a promise long ago,
to never let him worried...let it be my health or my daily activities...
It actually takes up a lot of courage to meet that one person you loved so much for the last time and knowing that it'll be the end for the both of us...
I hope it will end up smoothly...with lesser tears...
Because I know it's impossible to not cry...
and it's freaking tomorrow night!!
Coming back from the UK,
was a decision made because i wanted to be with my loved ones...
I never did regret doing such decision altho I know I had a future there...
it is simply because coming back, had created so much more memories for us :)
I remembered, during the year,
On CNY itself, I spent more time with him and his family members...
We went to Pangkor,riding the bike around the town like country girl and boy
We did have some awesome time playing video games...
Yeap...it is not working out was what he said to me...
Sigh...
Tears rolling down my cheeks for the whole day,working or not...
It still rolls down uncontrollably...
It may look unprofessional I know...
but I have feelings too...
I'm trying to hide all that emotional looks...
But it seems like I'm not strong enough...
I just wanna hide in a corner...
where no one could see my tears,my fears and my sadness
There's no more turning back...
Goodbye MyHeart!
Perhaps,I'm moving too slow...
Or...was it you who had moved too quickly?
But I know, the love we once shared was real~
And I still love...
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