New life had started

LOL...starting to love my new single life now~!!! after all,it's not tat bad...the other day,yuan was talking to me..she said,"i miss out a lot of things when i was with him"...well...i found out what she's saying is kinda true too ^^ had planned everything...next wednesday,i'm going to movie after class ^^then during sem break,we'll be going to Port Dickson and Malacca with classmates ^^ Though i haven ask permission from daddy,i hope i can go so does my frens too ^^ BUT the bad news is,i need to drive...mayb can take turns let yuen drive =) but oso kinda worry becuz it's my car...i'm afraid of accidents =( so i guess,i need to drive myself
early Sept will be my finals...haven even start studying yet =( haihz...the time table sux le...we had Managing Information System,Business Law and TAX one shot =( lolz...will try my best to remember everything...
btw,i get to know a guy...he's a lot more older than me...but age doesnt matter ^^ he's kinda cute and naughty in personality...when i was talking to him,i had no stress at all...and most of the time,he made me laugh...i guess that's all for now...will be back for more ^^

u pull me up and u tear me down

yeap...he really did pull me up when i was at my worse of time...he came back to me...and now finally he's tearing me down again...wat am i to you? a rubbish?? suan le ba...it ends now...mayb u guys had already started ur relationship...i will be here praying tat u guys can have happiness ^^
but there's one thing i really dun understand...is bout W.C...we're both gals...but i dunno why u wana do this to me...had i done anything wrong to u before??? i noe she had the intention to hurt me PURPOSELY...i'm saying this bcuz she came and add me and even start talking to me...she "zhu dong" do all tat...and today she post tat thing oso i noe is purposely wana show me tat she had my ex...why do u wana hurt me?? i cant think of anything else...we're both gals..i think no1 can understand how i feel other than u and the rest of the gals in the world...but no matter wat u did,wrong or correct,i guess louis will be standing on ur side...cherish ur moments gal =)

i thanks God for Your arrangement in my destiny...even though sumtimes i wonder why You treat me this way or wondered what i had done wrong to deserve this kind of treatment... but still,i guess there's a reason behind all Your arrangement...i thank You again for Your guidance in my life...God bless me

happiness

ever since last saturday,i had decided to let go my ex,to give him up and not to think bout it anymore...after making tat decision,i feel quiet relieve and i was really happy till now..enjoying my life...at least my life wudn't let him control anymore ^^ today,got 1 aunty praised me...she said i'm getting prettier ^^ happy to hear tat =) i guess it was cuz of my hair dyed and after slim down alot...

this few days,i slept quite late...wondered why...am i suffering from insomnia??? aikx...normally i sleep during lectures...but today,i cant even take a nap...hmmm...i'm tired but just cant sleep...i found out sth shocking is tat the slut(W.C), she can do such things tat u cant imagine...lolz...i saw sth from facebook just now and i took down the pic ^^ well,W.C ar...this is just an advice for u...this guy if u want it,u can have him...i dun wan him le...like chinese ppl say "yat ci bat zhong,bak ci bat yong"...furthermore this guy had already betrayed me twice...just becareful...since we're both gals,i'm oni telling u this...but if u wana go for it,go ahead...not that i wana make u guys separate...after all he's my ex and i understand him quite deep...i will give u guys my blessings as how i gave him when he likes yee ling =)

but letting go is a good sign i guess ^^ i can find a better 1 than him..we've been together for 5 years...we've been thru ups and downs to get this far...but i feel tat it was always me who tried and fight for our relationship and you're always the one who ruin it...but anyway,u had allowed me to experienced and learnt new things from this relationship...i will be more aware of guys ^^ thanx for your tutoring...

In this pic,she wrote "xin de mei yi fen,mei yi miao dou zai xiang ni"...i noe that she's the 1 who send it out first becuz of the time and she even sent twice...

How naive i am

i really thought u love me...now i noe that u patched back wit me bcuz u feel lonely...i just found out tat my ex went out wit a gal called winne chin...they went for a movie =( it really hurts me badly now...really a lot...how naive i am to think tat we're stable???~!!! i hate myself~!!!!!

First cut is the deepest

tat's a song name...but it's true bout it's song title...indeed first cut is the deepest...but 2nd cut is oso the deepest for me bcuz it's cause by the same guy...i still cant get thru it...i cant explain my feelings rite now...i just noe tat i still love him a lot and i do miss him now...how come he can be so cruel??? say break then break...does our 5 years relationships means ntg to him? even all those obstacles tat we went thru? haihz...

i had not visit his car team's forum for weeks...but dunno why just now suddenly wana have a look...i guess i was too afraid to see wat i dun wana see...he had already changed the name list to Sg Klah =( i wish he wud bring me go but i noe tat the fact is he wudnt even ask me out...it's vv sad...i guess he had a new gal tat's why he can give up everything we owned...i feel like crying out loud...but i cant do it =( afraid tat my dad will ask wat had happened...

I MISS HIM A LOTS AND I LOVE HIM~!!!!

i noe even though he doesnt love me anymore...but my door will still always be open for him for as long as i could...i really hope there's miracle...but i guess in this case,there aren't any miracles for me...and miracles dun happen in my life before =(

SHOCKED~!!!

today,i had planned to skipped class...didnt have the mood to attend it...so,i went to my ex house to look for his mum...his mum asked me to accompany her...so i did...i waited for her to get ready...she gave me new cloth and a wig ^^ it's wonderful...then when she's ready,we went out for breakfast...we went to axian dim sum...hmmm...it taste normal,nothing out of the box ^^ we just ate siu mai and xiao long bao...tat's all...then we headed to IOI mall and we shopped for the groceries ^^
i received a call from my dearest darling,xiao yuan...was so happy tat she came back...but she flew off to melbourne tonite =( after a long walk,we went to sakae sushi...didnt eat much tho...my appetite is goin down so does my weight...i guess tat's a good sign rite? then i talked to hui boon as his shops is located there too ^^ lolz...after tat,we headed home...
i was SHOCKED and TERRIFIED that i saw jl's car and my ex's harrier...at tat moment,i stunt...felt vv scare to see him...then i talked to jl as i didnt see him for quite some time...not long later,we went into his house to sit...
then my ex came down and saw me...he smile and asked me "why u are here de?"...he then looked at jl and jl answered "it wasnt me who bring her here,she can drive"...lolz...it's kinda awkward tat he smiled but mayb i was sensitive or wat...or mayb he wasnt even smiling bcuz of me...yea...tat's rite...sud be thinking it tat way so i won hurt myself anymore...then he went out edi...i helped his mum to change the bed sheet in her room...it looks nice ^^
i went home not long later and headed to the saloon and get my hair dyed ^^...i'm so happy bcuz finally it's dyed and it smells good..it's not a sudden decision but just wana make myself prettier for tomolo's event...i will be going to quottro tomolo nite ^^

sudden news struck my feelings

last nite sth happened...but never mind it...i just read pei chie's blog...and i was so sad after i read it...long ago,my ex planned a trip to Sg Klah...i had really wanted to go there...but now...i guess it will remain as a dream...it has vv beautiful scenery and vv relaxing...i cant go anymore cuz i noe tat my ex wudnt even ask me bout it...i really am sad,and some kind of vv confused emotions that actually doesn't sounds good...haihz...i really do hope i can go there...