this is actually a continuous post from before...as i was in a rush...i didnt get to post some of the things and some of it i had forgotten...now,to recall...well,some1 told me why ALL girls can be cruel...but pls rephrase ur sentence...it is not ALL...just SOME...i know urs is like a slut..and the facts is right in front of you...it is just a matter of confronting it...but u cant...so u chose to stand all her attitudes...
They asked, "how does it feel to love someone who loves someone else?" After a deep breath, I answered, "It's like hugging a cactus, the tighter you embrace, the more it hurts..."
That is the way how u are feeling right now...the pain...i had given u advices..given u route...given u choices to choose from...i just dun hope that you'll disappoint me,my fren...
after talking bout his problems,he asked bout me...told me i had some sort of changes...well,the answer is vv simple...i had been hurt...that's y i'm learning to protect myself this way...i'm never ever gonna fall in love again...even if i do,i will control my feelings for that person so that i wouldnt go any deeper...i'm just afraid...just afraid that i'll be hurt once more...
"fool me once,shame on you...fool me twice,shame on me"
yes,indeed...tat is the quotation...and really,shame on me...i had been fooled by u twice and for the god damn same reason...haihz...just dun wana think bout it anymore...i might be over-self-protected...but that's the only way i can survive...
Friday, October 30, 2009
SEM 2 - Week 4
nothing much bout this week...had heard sth from some1 of my past....i do hope i can help him to sort things out...but anyway,take good care my fren...went for dinner on wed with ryan and gang...ate steamboat...have fun though =)
as usual...i'm the most talkative 1...but hey,it was only tat day i talked...usually i dont =) me and joyce,we had sooo much in common...haha...gonna plan a good good trip ^^ this sunday i'm going to lagoon with them too...suppose this saturday to go to phuture...but haihz...due to the need to wake up early on sunday morning,i didnt follow my other gang
instead,will be going to movies with ryan and gang again...furthermore,i will be having small tests on monday...so i guess,i'll be good for this week first =) lolz...next tuesday will be eating with my mates again...havent plan where to go =( be back for more...
as usual...i'm the most talkative 1...but hey,it was only tat day i talked...usually i dont =) me and joyce,we had sooo much in common...haha...gonna plan a good good trip ^^ this sunday i'm going to lagoon with them too...suppose this saturday to go to phuture...but haihz...due to the need to wake up early on sunday morning,i didnt follow my other gang
instead,will be going to movies with ryan and gang again...furthermore,i will be having small tests on monday...so i guess,i'll be good for this week first =) lolz...next tuesday will be eating with my mates again...havent plan where to go =( be back for more...
Monday, October 26, 2009
HYPER
hahah...as usual...am in hyper mode now...lolz...it was for 2 reasons...1 is vv vv personal...it's kinda secret...and the other 1 was,will be going to lunch with mates tomolo...will be taking hell lotsa fotos...tomolo louis will be separating our accounts as in our phone lines...tat's good...i dun wan to drag anything any longer =)
i bought a new phone pocket which looks like a pants but in a petite size...i oso bought a dress and a belt...a dress which is suitable for clubbing...hehe...i oso bought a new bottle which is in PURPLE colour...my fav =)
there's lotsa plans on my mind now...so that's oso kinda 1 of the reasons i'm hyper-ing...i just love my mates loads...we have funs together...go thru ups and downs together too...this sat feli invited me and chai yen out again...hope this time she wont ffk =)
i bought a new phone pocket which looks like a pants but in a petite size...i oso bought a dress and a belt...a dress which is suitable for clubbing...hehe...i oso bought a new bottle which is in PURPLE colour...my fav =)
there's lotsa plans on my mind now...so that's oso kinda 1 of the reasons i'm hyper-ing...i just love my mates loads...we have funs together...go thru ups and downs together too...this sat feli invited me and chai yen out again...hope this time she wont ffk =)
Sunday, October 25, 2009
PARTAY~~!!!
just came home...it's saturday nite...wat more i can do...CLUB...hahah...suppose to go to phuture...the other gang canceled it bcuz they had basketball competition...then another gang call me again...but didnt make it lar...cuz she say kl jam...so no go
at last...i went to sanctuary...with rayner and phoebe...my ex colleague's from mooncake's festival event =) guess who i saw? i saw william...from team secret...i mean ex member of team secret...the white myvi guy lor...hahah...i was like...why so familiar...so i bring my guts forward and call william? lolz..he ask,"louis gf?"...i answer EX...i repeated a lot of times then only he get it...wtf...lolz...so coincidence ler...
then i make a lot of new frens...got a gal came forward to me and say i'm cute ler...she added that she like me a lot...and we exchange phone numbers =) glad to be frens with her...then phoebe introduce some frens of hers to me =) i did had a great time...
kinda dizzy...cuz i kept bottoms up...haiz...not gentleman at all lar...keep ask me drink...luckily i still can drink...damn...it's edi 4.26am jor...i gtg sleep ler =) photos will be uploaded soon...cuz some of it is with my frens =)
at last...i went to sanctuary...with rayner and phoebe...my ex colleague's from mooncake's festival event =) guess who i saw? i saw william...from team secret...i mean ex member of team secret...the white myvi guy lor...hahah...i was like...why so familiar...so i bring my guts forward and call william? lolz..he ask,"louis gf?"...i answer EX...i repeated a lot of times then only he get it...wtf...lolz...so coincidence ler...
then i make a lot of new frens...got a gal came forward to me and say i'm cute ler...she added that she like me a lot...and we exchange phone numbers =) glad to be frens with her...then phoebe introduce some frens of hers to me =) i did had a great time...
kinda dizzy...cuz i kept bottoms up...haiz...not gentleman at all lar...keep ask me drink...luckily i still can drink...damn...it's edi 4.26am jor...i gtg sleep ler =) photos will be uploaded soon...cuz some of it is with my frens =)
Saturday, October 24, 2009
a lil bit of disappointment
haihz...i had received a sms from my dear chai yen...guess what? the outing tomolo BO JADI =( haihz..feli put aeroplane leh...haihz...nvm lar..there's always next time...so no photos to update currently...have to wait for last min call again...
sienz...vv sienz...today really sienz..can fatt mou...just now went out yam char again with the same gang...haihz...oso sienz lar...ntg to do...so i went home earlier so i can online...so far,i need to do all my tutorials...especially FAP...cuz i'm presenting on monday =(
sienz...vv sienz...today really sienz..can fatt mou...just now went out yam char again with the same gang...haihz...oso sienz lar...ntg to do...so i went home earlier so i can online...so far,i need to do all my tutorials...especially FAP...cuz i'm presenting on monday =(
Friday, October 23, 2009
it is time
been talking on the phone with ryan again...talked for an hour plus...yeah...it was hell long...lolz...we discussed on problems persists...he knew that what he was doing...he knew lots...and i just understands he doesnt know how to express it...well...sud i set a dateline or sud i just let it flow like how george said??
i havent asked JL yet...i sud have talk to him first...there's lotsa things ryan told me today...he's starting to open up to me bit by bit...it's time for me to change...a new me,a new personality,a new characteristics...from external to internal
yes...in the previous post,i said cy told me i had changed...i guess tat isnt good enough...so i had decided to change even more...i aint gona care bout anyone anymore...with exceptions ofcuz...i will continue to give concern to my best buddies..
i'm not gona be sticky anymore to any1...it is finally time to change...haihz...on the other hand,i still dont know if i should set a dateline or not...when the time comes,i will let go of everything =) then no1 will suffer right? yeap...then yes,it is =) i am already independent...now,i must learn how to be strong and be even more mature...
i havent asked JL yet...i sud have talk to him first...there's lotsa things ryan told me today...he's starting to open up to me bit by bit...it's time for me to change...a new me,a new personality,a new characteristics...from external to internal
yes...in the previous post,i said cy told me i had changed...i guess tat isnt good enough...so i had decided to change even more...i aint gona care bout anyone anymore...with exceptions ofcuz...i will continue to give concern to my best buddies..
i'm not gona be sticky anymore to any1...it is finally time to change...haihz...on the other hand,i still dont know if i should set a dateline or not...when the time comes,i will let go of everything =) then no1 will suffer right? yeap...then yes,it is =) i am already independent...now,i must learn how to be strong and be even more mature...
Thursday, October 22, 2009
randomzz
today i was late again...i skipped first class...haihz..it's only week 3 of sem 2 =( attendance not nice jor =( haihz...and i purposely do my corporate law & governons tutorial lor...damn sad lar...
planned to swim today...who knows,it was such good weather in the morning and suddenly it was raining cats and dogs in the afternoon...so we didnt go for it =( i purposely dun wana swim ytdy nite de lor...haihz...suan liao...
as usual...it was raining,i fetch chai yen bek...then we had our gal's talk...she told me that i had changed a lot when compared to last time with louis...i noticed that too...just that i wanted to protect myself...i dun wana hurt once more...once is enough...moreover,i experienced twice...anyway,that's good she said...and she preferred to have me in this way =)
i dun have new pic nowadays...cuz of the outings with diff gang...sat will have loads...cuz will be going out with feli...guess what,she's driving...hohoho...a bit scare lar..hahah...and she loves taking photos...so,i get to update my fb again =)
planned to swim today...who knows,it was such good weather in the morning and suddenly it was raining cats and dogs in the afternoon...so we didnt go for it =( i purposely dun wana swim ytdy nite de lor...haihz...suan liao...
as usual...it was raining,i fetch chai yen bek...then we had our gal's talk...she told me that i had changed a lot when compared to last time with louis...i noticed that too...just that i wanted to protect myself...i dun wana hurt once more...once is enough...moreover,i experienced twice...anyway,that's good she said...and she preferred to have me in this way =)
i dun have new pic nowadays...cuz of the outings with diff gang...sat will have loads...cuz will be going out with feli...guess what,she's driving...hohoho...a bit scare lar..hahah...and she loves taking photos...so,i get to update my fb again =)
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