goodbye 2009 & helloo 2010

yeah..it's the last day of 2009...didnt went out...expected to stay home and sleep...family went back to hometown but i didnt follow cuz i was having class in the morning...they came home quite late...and i was vv hungry since 5pm..so ngam ryan called...i told him to faster come bek from work cuz i'm vv hungry...and he invited me to his hse for dinner ^^
well...thinking back of wat i had done for the one whole year...ntg much...louis and i celebrated our birthday on the same day,28th march...at jl's hse..beside the pool there we had bbq ^^was vv happy by then...then we went to penang for TS trip in the month of june...then not long...in th month of august,we broke up...then i started to club alot...haihz...i guess i'm alrite...hope this year 2010 will be better =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!!

Merry Christmas

on christmas eve,i went out with ryan,kat,joyce,jin choong and yen hong...we had our dinner...it's more like a supper...cuz we ate like bout 9 sth?? jin choong was scary..he ate lotsa rice...in chinese,we call him fan tong..lolz
we were discussing where to go after that..conclusion was genting..we were afraid tat it would be very jam...but luckily it didnt =) lotsa cars,but doesnt jam at all...and we zhap sei kai..haha...tat's for parking lar
they actually wana go for gamble..but ryan was afraid tat i couldnt get in...so yen hong took her sist's ic for emergency...cy was there too..but couldnt get to see her cuz she went bek liao...
well,we went to the resort's hotel's casino...i can go in ler~!!! they didnt even check me..haha..i was so happy...ryan say i lou shui =( my kai ma oso say tat...i say no lor...just mature..hahha..mayb the way i dress tat night was kinda diff plus my frinch is longer,put it aside..look more mature..first time going in...looked at ppl play...kinda sienz lar..then i waited for them..reach home bout 3 sth...so tired...

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone~!! =) didnt do much lar today...just reach home too..went to watch avatar..it's a nice movie..not bad for me lar..ehehe..k lar..gtg liao..it's 4.05am in the morning d~!!

Randomz

i cant think of any title for it...well...ytdy i was at hometown...damn sienz..sist invited me to go to cc..well,since there's ntg to do,i went for it..went back to kl after dinner =)
ntg much to do lar...play comp...went for night market oso...then daddy went out at night..as usual lor...go drink...
i received a call from daddy...saying he'll bring a caucasian home....i was so excited...cuz it's the first time we're hosting =) well,he's a fren of my dad..will be staying at our home for few days =) i just uploaded new photos...here's the link
http://www.facebook.com/bebejezz?ref=profile

shopping spree 19122009

i dont know wat came into me today..i just feel like wana go for shopping...i sms whei,as she promised me tat she'll go out with me...but she cant...due to some personal reasons...then i called gori go with me...but gori wana go for the battleground...so there's no1 for me to call liao...and at last,my family willing to go with me...
well,i went to times square...to look for shoes...mission accomplished there...walk till headache...after that we hurried to sg wang for my clothes...was looking for red..cuz we need to wear either red,green or white on wed and thurs to college...to take foto =) well,i found~!! lolz
then i went to another shop again...this is where my shopping time ends...cuz i bought 2 skinny jeans,1 shorts,1 leggings,1 scarf and 1 shirt...lolz..a lot ler...spent everything on 1 shot =( actually i still got a pair of heels to buy at 1u de...haihz..but budget over limit liao ='( sadnyaaa
then we are off to pavilion to watch the snow...we're early still ^^ so we went in and took a lot of fotos...then we went out at the main entrance there again for foto shoot...after that,sist were vv tired...they went to THE LOAF and rest there...i went in too...while waiting for the snow
FINALLY...it's snowing...hahah...damn happy...cuz took lotsa fotos =) then we went to the overseas to have our dinner =) after tat went back home...took our bath and went back hometown =( vv bored there ler...haihz..i'm uploading the fotos soon ^^

10122009 & 12122009

well,on the 10th of this month,we celebrated king kong's birthday...celebrated it in advance becuz lynn is going to pangkor on the next day...had been planning her a sursprise since last month...suppose to bring her to starbucks to had her fav cake,TIRAMISU...but it aint gona be surprise cuz she'll figure it out...
so,we are going to use back the old idea...her house...haha...same as last year...just slightly diff..this time,more ppl,bigger cake,place of hiding is diff too ^^ on tat day,i didnt fetch her...everyone who joined us are in a hurry so tat we'll reach her place b4 she does...it works =) as usual,she have a big mouth...can hear her talking bout her shuai ge...haha..
our plan goes on very well...she was in her room...we have to wait a few min outside cuz she was in the toilet...her room mate and house mate did help out too ^^ when she open the door, *SURPRISE*~!! haha...i can see she almost burst into tears...our birthday song was oso diff...wana noe?? a video will soon be uploaded to fb =) there's so much ppl...it was just like new year...haha...love my babe =D

okay...we didnt get any prezzie for her,we wanted her to choose for herself so that we wouldnt get anything wrong and she'll love it =) we planned to go to 1u on the 12th...right after our lectures...i arrived late for lectures...it's vv common already...but lecturer wasnt teaching anything tat day...was just doing revision
we headed to 1u after i went home changing my clothes...we were very hungry by then...but still,took quite lotsa photos before we eat...we went to dragon-i...Xiao Long Bao is a must have =) we didnt order each per plate...we order lotsa foods as in ala-carte and white rice for the 4 of us
while waiting,we took lotsa fotos again..haha...those in silly looks...it's on fb now...but i will get the rest of it from king kong tomolo =) we took a lot of times becuz king kong just wouldnt satisfy with it...she kept saying "my face looks fat"...sigh...so tired...then we have our food...
while eating,we take fotos again..it's like a must do everytime we go out...lolz..everyone was looking at us...especially the ang mo lang who is sitting opposite...he kept laughing...well...we were really happy that day...she couldnt find the bag that she desire...so she'll claim it from us when she found it =)
hoping to go for another round next time ^^ it's such fun..though the bill was kinda expensive...it's my first time eating with my frens at such places and ordering without limits =D normally i'll go with diff kind of person...but nvm =) really had fun...the next time,we shall all have sushi and korean cuisine...yay~!!! LOVE YOU PEEPS~!!!

Bamboo 9

it's friday night...wanted to go for movie with M.RN...but didnt go...cuz M.RN was busy...but phoebe called earlier bout 5sth in the evening...replied her call...invited me to clubs...lolz...didnt wanted to go out...but was very boring...so i went
she said...we will either go bamboo OR quottro FIRST....then the second round to rootz..then i was like...erm...think first lor...then bout 10sth only i called her back and said ok...so she fetch me with 1 of her fren,named hui sun...then we headed to bamboo...
met a lot of new frens there...i love nico...she's a great dancer...then phoebe was drunk-ing liao...so went home earlier...bout 2 reached home...cont doing my BEC notes..
the next day wasnt feeling well...stomach is hurting...i think it was becuz i just ate 1 time only on fri...it's saturday...and was having my replacement class...
so sienz...haihz...then went to cannes tea house....ate brunch there...with lynn and cy...then me and lynn stayed there to do revision...
i didnt go out today...cuz wasnt feeling well..mashi went to phuture...he didnt invite me ler =( haihz...nvm lar...i know he wouldnt anymore...our frenship gap is getting bigger and bigger =( phoebe oso call me today...go club again...sam yok yok tim...but cant lar...need to rush for my assignments oso
it is a very uncommon assignment and yet so business world...so u can imagine how tough it is...we even need to use their annual reports to write on...still doing on it now...this week we will be having 3 cw tests...haihz...tough week...after this week,we will be freed~!!!
honestly,i do kinda miss the time i have with mashi...but now...mashi like treat me sooo cold...dun hope to lose this fren...i do treasure every frens i had...k lar...gtg cont my assignment ler...

Weekends~~

as usual lor...is saturday night again...not much i can do other than clubbing or watch movie or yam cha...well...for this week,i went to club lor...
was suppose to go to phuture...but suddenly cancel =( damn sad ler...hiahz..yuan said she saw pui zhen there...wish i was there...ens up,M.RN say go sanctuary...so i changed...cuz i was wearing dress earlier preparing to go phuture...
since plan changed,so oso need to chge clothes to suit the environment geh =P but end up,didnt go to sanctuary...instead,we went to bamboo 9~!!! i hate bamboo...vv sienz...not fun...or is it the persons i'm with,tat's y it aint fun??
nothing much to update tho...went home super duper late...M.RN fetched me home...according to him,i was vv drunk~!! OMG~!! damn paiseh...wonder if i had done anything embarassing...lolz..
not in a vv good mood to blog today =( haihz...vv fan lar...there's someone out there is in trouble...but,i had done all i can to help him...i had given all the advice i could...which is same as A.L...but it's really up to him that which path he wana choose =) may god bless you...

27112009 - haji holiday

today is hari raya haji...no class...but have piano lesson in the morning =( then i came home and prepare myself...to go to mid valley with kat,joyce and M.RN...
was sooooo tired...aite,we had our brunch at double one...then headed to midvalley...we walked and shop till dead...then we walked to gardens...went into isetan...nothing in there suits me...came out and sit down,rest...
after that,me and M.RN headed to midvalley again to buy clothes...i tried on a few...but still thinking wana buy or not..end up,i bought nothing today =( haihz...nvm lar...will be going to shopping wit my dear chai yen soon ^^ her taste is good...so she might help me to get some good clothes ^^
then went back to the gardens again...cuz our car parked there...joyce bought the famous karipap...dun even know bout that..havent try before...then we went home for dinner..
we had our dinner at kepong baru...mei gai hup...quite delicious lar..or was i starving?? then headed home cuz i had second round...planned to go poppy with hui boon...but my colleague dun wana go...so end up yam cha with yee teng...
yee teng and her bf came to fetch me...went to papparich...she even introduce darius to me...quite good guy lar...doesnt club...and he got curfew~!!! seldom boys have curfew...lolz...then darius fetch me home...cuz yee teng's bf is in a rush...we talked on our way home =)
yee teng is planning trips...she invited me along...i asked her to confirm the date first ^^ they're having sem breaks...but i'm not =( that's y..well,all of us stay so near only...there's lotsa of chance in the future...

The day i meet you again - 25112009

i can see that you really had lotsa things on your mind...aite...here goes...it was a vv usual college day...then we yam cha at nite..with hw,vc,yielyn and jl...including me and you...thanks for fetching me anyway...
we reached kinda late...but nvm lar,jl oso bout 10 pm only off duty...all the time,you were just busy pressing your handphone or laptop checking on her...even hw said that you came out not to yam cha...but i truly understands that what you had on your mind...
well,b4 12am,everyone went home...just left the 2 of us...i accompanied you...was supposed to sleep early,cuz having discussion at 8 the next day...but i stay...bout 2 sth only we left station 1..
u were chatting with alvin and hl in msn...and i saw everything...you told alvin that u had been hurt by gals...u wana be a player and you saw frens around you oso had been hurt by gals too...at that particular moment,i was thinking,did i hurt you like the way she did?? i do hope you can be rationale a bit...
this gurl wasnt simple...i told you that,i warned you...even your frens...even your mum...but u chose not to believe us..end up this way...not to say i'm being jealous of what...but that's the truth...
think properly lar...dun let your feelings control you...i'm sure there are much more better gurls than her outside there...that you deserve...dun hope to see you hurt this way again...may god bless you...

another day of HYPER-ness

lolz...ck ar...i know u are reading this...sorry,couldnt make it to post this on the 24th...i just woke up...hahaha...12 sth now almost 1am jor...so it's 25th...another new day ler =)
wonder why,i went crazy whole day long...vv active...hahah...i had a vv good night sleep last nite...mayb cuz i was too tired after donating blood...
today i bought grapes to eat...seedless ones...jo jo asked funny question when she saw that grapes of mine...she asked "what is that"...and i answer "DARK CHOCOLATE"...lolz...everyone laughed ^^
i took some pictures of it too...will be uploading them tomolo...including the blood donation's photos =)
went for BRUNCH today...brunch is wat we call when we eat breakfast and lunch together...hehe...cost savings =) went to old place for that...then headed back to college...didnt went to the library lar...was in car,lazy to go down...so lynn check our assignments in my car...while she's checking,i'm eating my baby grapes...they're soooo cute and small in size...i ate the big ones too...erica asked "why all so small 1 de"...hahah...that's the reason why =D

Blood Donation Campaign 2009

today the blood donation campaign 2009 starts...planned to donate on thurs geh...but frens are going today..so i went lu...
first i enter the college hall...they measure our weight...then we need to fill up particulars form...then wait...after that we need to test our blood is in which category...i'm "O" type...after that,they measure our pressure and ask a lot things since this is my first time...
they key in our particulars and gave us a red book...is used everytime when we donate our blood...headed to next counter to take the blood bags and needles...after that have to wait again for my turn to donate...while waiting,i look at jon...OMFG~!!! i saw how the nurse insert the needles...vv scary..
i chose a seat for right hand geh...gori say it's better to choose active hand...so i did...i dare not look at my hand...kinda hurt a bit...the nurse say can start jor,so i kept move my palm...as in holding tight and form a shape of knuckle...
my blood is kinda concentrated...so kinda slow..but i press vv hard jor...i guess ok gua ^^ the bag is 450ml ler...damn lots...now my veins are blue black and even got a bump jor =( but after the donation,i felt dizzy...normal lar =) i oso felt happy cuz my blood may be used to save lifes =) photos of me donating blood will be upload later ^^

another thing was,i get back my economics result...it is far from my expectations...i get 38 over 40 ^^ hurray...another 2 marks gone cuz of careless mistakes =( haihz...nvm lar...try harder the next time =D

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Fantastic Friday - 20112009

it's friday~!!! hurray...it's hwee lynn's birthday...well,we celebrated on thurs..we bought her a cake and a jeans skirt...she loves them..the plan was supposed to give her a surprise before our first lesson...but plan spoilt cuz i woke up late and yuen didnt have car...
then we had a second plan is to give her a surprise after our 1st lesson...surprised was spoilt again becuz of yuen sent the msg to wrong person...she sent to lynn~!!! well,nvm that...better than ntg =)

on friday,we had our pavilion days once more ^^ have lectures in the morning...then we went for breakfast...after that only head to pavilion =) we watched 2012 ^^ great movie...the ticket was vv vv long...it's for 23 persons..haha...we took pics of it too...it's in my fb...
we gals and guys oso took a group foto...categories each and have a big group of foto for both categories ^^ was having a great time...hopes that there's always another time again =) as in going to pavilion,watch movie in such big groups...this is our 1st time,the biggest of all...almost the whole class went =)

Wet Wednesday

It's another rainy day in kl...everyday also rain and it rain non stop for the whole day =( rainy days always remind me of sadness,emo-ness...had my MA coursework test today...i did badly...i knew i will fail...no hope at it anymore...can only count on my coursework 2 and attendance...
had been thinking for a while...friends around me and my ex...there are ppl who understand me and there are not...most of them dun understands me...well,i wouldnt blame them bcuz i hide my feelings deeply and sometimes,i send out the wrong msg to them...when i'm serious,they thought i'm jk...when i'm jk,they thought i'm serious...only those who are really close to me understands me...
close here means like really very very best frens...darling yuan was one of it...sometimes i do not need to speak out,she also knew what i wana say...sometimes ppl thought those who close to me understands me...but i can tell u,even my ex dun understand me...
sometimes it really hurts when u see someone who's close to you,knew you for years...yet they still dun trust you,they still suspect you,they never support you,never stand by your side...it really hurts alot...
am i that hard to communicate with? my conditions are very easy...i just needed someone to support me by my side...i felt like i'm collapsing...i felt vv tired...tired of being acting strong,independent girl who doesnt need a man...deep down,i needed some1 to care for me,love me for who i am...sometimes,i need someone's shoulder to lean on...need someone to hug...
but it aint easy to find someone who totally understands me,care me and love me for who i am...well,i'll just let it flow...next year,i'll be doing ACCA...it means,there's no time for fun already...maybe just not that much...i will continue to update my post =)

Phuture =)

hurray~!!! miracle #1 had been achieved =) went to phuture instead of poppy...vv vv happy...among all the clubs,i love most is phuture =) everything was fun except for the part when mashi was mad =(
that day,he really in a vv vv bad mood...vv scary...he looks fierce...i was vv afraid too =( i had never seen him in this way b4...i wonder how is he now...haihz...
we went in...then chai peng join us later...we took lotsa fotos...love my darling lots...really had lotsa fun...fun like i never had b4...at first,i went in and drank quite a lot...bcuz i wasnt happy...was thinking the reason behind mashi's bad mood...feel kinda dizzy...then my darling control me,wouldnt let me to drink anymore until i was better...
boom boom shake shake all nite long...really vv happy...all her cousins are vv frenly...i hope there's next round with them again...but i dun think there is anymore =( mashi seems to dislike me...i didnt wear the dress that mashi bought...bcuz he asked me not to say a word bout it,bout the dress was bought by him =( so i might as well not wear it...i really love that dress,but,couldnt wear =( haihz...anxiously waiting for the photos ^^

Miracles...

my darling just came back from singapore ytdy =) this time,no matter what,i'll gonna meet up with her~!!! miss her lots...as b4,we discussed to go to poppy...something happen in the middle so it was like "cant-go-kinda news"...but now,it's on
might be going to phuture,said my darling =) better...haha...vv happy ler...tonite can meet her,mashi and a zai...all oso vv long no see jor...especially a zai...hurray~!!! but still,just now was havin transport prob...everything's settle right now...just hope that it wouldnt cancel suddenly...
planned to wear my near dress ^^ but i dunno which heels to go with it...the highest heels is the 1 which best suits it...but i'm gonna feel tired later =( so how...which sud i wear =(
mashi's kinda cool today...wonder why =( i felt that he kinda dislike me d...is he? =( i wonder why...what had i done to upset him? what had i done to made him feel this way towards me? =(

me,myself and i

who am i?? i kept asking myself this question..not just people around me said that i had changed BUT also my closed fren..recently,i realized that i'm not the old me anymore...i somehow found myself to be a monster...
i once used to be very cheerful,nothing to kept from any1 else...now still the same,as in cheerful...but i kept everything to myself...is it because i had been hurt,had been betrayed? or is it bcuz i had no1 that i trust to talk to? i dont know what came over me...
i have lots and lots of unhappy things...at times,i just wish to cry...but big girls dont cry =) i tried to be strong...i tried my best...but there's a limit...i dont know how long i can go on anymore...sometimes,i feel like i'm going to collapse soon...
what more can i do? i'm hiding my feelings...this is just so not me...i used to be someone who shows out all the emotions...even if i dont,i will share...i really do miss the old me...well,humans do grow old...so as for me,i think because of the changes around me,i'm changing according to it too...so far,mature was 1 of it that i heard from =) glad to hear that...

on next friday,we'll be celebrating hl's birthday...the whole class will go to pavilion for movie...we will be buying a mini skirt for lynn ^^ hope she will like it...and hey gal,you're 1 year big d...and enjoy your last year of teen ^^ we'll be taking lotsa pics =D

Disappointments

you're wondering,why am i feeling disappointed?? well,here's the story...ytdy,i told my darling yuan and mashi that this saturday go poppy...was vv excited bout it...yuan even call me to talk bout it..she even asked is it confirm...and i said YES~!!! but now...mashi MOST probably cant go...
reason?? well,he just told me that he dated his fren last week saying that this sat go for movie =( actually i'm vv disappointed and upset now bcuz he didnt told me ytdy when i say this sat go poppy...he had given both me and my darling hope...now,left us with disappointments...
but i truly understands that it's ok if he didnt go,bcuz he didnt see his fren since june...just that i'm feeling vv unhappy now...almost burst into tears...u might be thinking that i'm a cry baby...but think again...after all those excitements...it ended up for nothing =(

he did change alot since the last day we met...he wasnt like this b4...he was vv good...but now,everything he do,the way he talk...just doesnt seems like the mashi i once knew...became more lanci...dunno what came into him...haihz...i just dun hope to lose this good fren...and hope he can chge back to the old him when i first knew him...
honestly,i'm really feeling very moody now =( need a hug...and i do hope there will be changes in the plan...hope that there's miracle...hope that the poppy night is still on

SEM 2 - WEEK 5

this whole week nothing much happen lor...life just like river that flows...which means it's smooth but at times,water that run thru rocks have splashes a bit...i had coursework test on monday...then the whole week no event...
called phoebe ytdy...she was going to quottro or phuture...she did invite me,but i didnt go...cuz ryan said going to genting mar...but all thanks to MK lar...we didnt go...ryan's frens did call him to go sanctuary...unfortunately,it's full hse there...
so,jin chong's frens invited us to go bamboo 9...i drove...fetch both of them...went there...ah seng's gf is totally hot~!!! and frenly too...unlike jermaine's..we dance and drink and chat...ryan vomit blood again...haihz...
he had given me the "licence" to control him not to drink any alcoholic drinks anymore...lolz...i do hope he can do it also lar...i was kinda drunk ytdy...so i didnt fetch ryan home...i dump him at jin chong's hse...lolz...sorry...both of them said i drove at high speed...sorry lar...a bit drunk,rushing back home to sleep...i felt that i'm kinda lucky cuz there isnt any road blocks and i didnt had accident...lesson learnt was never drive when u know u're going to drink alchol....thank god =)
tomolo will be having economics coursework test again =( i haven study yet...but fret not,i still have time and my foundation is consider good =) pls pray that i will pass it with flying colours ^^

the next outing...

ohh...i forgotten to mention sth in my last post...tat day i went to lagoon with ryan mar...we wore the same shirt,same design,same colour...same pants,but diff colour...argh~!!! we zhong sam =( his bro say,zhong dou jeng...haha...i oso stun when i went into the car and saw ryan wore the same clothes as me...
we planned to go for movie 2012...it is still in planning stage...will be going with class...the usual mates...going to pavilion for that...they wanted to go on fri...but i cant...so we chged to sat nite ^^ right after our dinner,we go to pavilion...dinner will be havin at jalan aloh...it was gori's idea...i guess it's alright lar =) still waiting for confirmation only...this time we'll be going at nite...cuz hl got classes till 5 sth...so i guess it's gonna be fun =) lolz

Updates

well,i went for dinner on friday at D'fortune with ryan,mk and may...it's a western cuisine...then nothing much lar...the next day,i was suppose to go to phuture...but i cancel bcuz i need to wake up early on sunday morning...
on sat,we had class...after that i fetch chai yen home to let her prepare for our outing...then i leave her with felicia...becuz i need to look for my ex to separate our lines...but end up...haihz...i just had lunch with him...talked to his mum...there's things happening...but i couldnt write out...after that,i went to 1u to meet up with feli and cy...then we walked a while,we went to gei tak sek,kepong...took pic...i went home earlier cuz i need to prepare for the nite...
went to 1u again at nite...i watched jennifer's body...megan fox was sexy as usual...there's funny sexual scene too...actually that movie isnt as nice as i expected it to be...there's no conflict at all...it was all the same...just murder and drinking blood...
then on sunday,i went to lagoon with ryan,joyce and kat...nothing extraordinary...just normal...but it had expanded...it rains too...but we still get to play =) just a vv normal outing lor...haihz..
today i had a coursework test...i didnt study at all...i did...but it was like just go through...didnt do well...copy most of it...and some of it,i try to use my common sense...and all of us didnt have enough time to finish it...haihz...just hope to pass...

Continued...

this is actually a continuous post from before...as i was in a rush...i didnt get to post some of the things and some of it i had forgotten...now,to recall...well,some1 told me why ALL girls can be cruel...but pls rephrase ur sentence...it is not ALL...just SOME...i know urs is like a slut..and the facts is right in front of you...it is just a matter of confronting it...but u cant...so u chose to stand all her attitudes...
They asked, "how does it feel to love someone who loves someone else?" After a deep breath, I answered, "It's like hugging a cactus, the tighter you embrace, the more it hurts..."
That is the way how u are feeling right now...the pain...i had given u advices..given u route...given u choices to choose from...i just dun hope that you'll disappoint me,my fren...
after talking bout his problems,he asked bout me...told me i had some sort of changes...well,the answer is vv simple...i had been hurt...that's y i'm learning to protect myself this way...i'm never ever gonna fall in love again...even if i do,i will control my feelings for that person so that i wouldnt go any deeper...i'm just afraid...just afraid that i'll be hurt once more...
"fool me once,shame on you...fool me twice,shame on me"
yes,indeed...tat is the quotation...and really,shame on me...i had been fooled by u twice and for the god damn same reason...haihz...just dun wana think bout it anymore...i might be over-self-protected...but that's the only way i can survive...

SEM 2 - Week 4

nothing much bout this week...had heard sth from some1 of my past....i do hope i can help him to sort things out...but anyway,take good care my fren...went for dinner on wed with ryan and gang...ate steamboat...have fun though =)
as usual...i'm the most talkative 1...but hey,it was only tat day i talked...usually i dont =) me and joyce,we had sooo much in common...haha...gonna plan a good good trip ^^ this sunday i'm going to lagoon with them too...suppose this saturday to go to phuture...but haihz...due to the need to wake up early on sunday morning,i didnt follow my other gang
instead,will be going to movies with ryan and gang again...furthermore,i will be having small tests on monday...so i guess,i'll be good for this week first =) lolz...next tuesday will be eating with my mates again...havent plan where to go =( be back for more...

HYPER

hahah...as usual...am in hyper mode now...lolz...it was for 2 reasons...1 is vv vv personal...it's kinda secret...and the other 1 was,will be going to lunch with mates tomolo...will be taking hell lotsa fotos...tomolo louis will be separating our accounts as in our phone lines...tat's good...i dun wan to drag anything any longer =)
i bought a new phone pocket which looks like a pants but in a petite size...i oso bought a dress and a belt...a dress which is suitable for clubbing...hehe...i oso bought a new bottle which is in PURPLE colour...my fav =)
there's lotsa plans on my mind now...so that's oso kinda 1 of the reasons i'm hyper-ing...i just love my mates loads...we have funs together...go thru ups and downs together too...this sat feli invited me and chai yen out again...hope this time she wont ffk =)

PARTAY~~!!!

just came home...it's saturday nite...wat more i can do...CLUB...hahah...suppose to go to phuture...the other gang canceled it bcuz they had basketball competition...then another gang call me again...but didnt make it lar...cuz she say kl jam...so no go
at last...i went to sanctuary...with rayner and phoebe...my ex colleague's from mooncake's festival event =) guess who i saw? i saw william...from team secret...i mean ex member of team secret...the white myvi guy lor...hahah...i was like...why so familiar...so i bring my guts forward and call william? lolz..he ask,"louis gf?"...i answer EX...i repeated a lot of times then only he get it...wtf...lolz...so coincidence ler...
then i make a lot of new frens...got a gal came forward to me and say i'm cute ler...she added that she like me a lot...and we exchange phone numbers =) glad to be frens with her...then phoebe introduce some frens of hers to me =) i did had a great time...
kinda dizzy...cuz i kept bottoms up...haiz...not gentleman at all lar...keep ask me drink...luckily i still can drink...damn...it's edi 4.26am jor...i gtg sleep ler =) photos will be uploaded soon...cuz some of it is with my frens =)

a lil bit of disappointment

haihz...i had received a sms from my dear chai yen...guess what? the outing tomolo BO JADI =( haihz..feli put aeroplane leh...haihz...nvm lar..there's always next time...so no photos to update currently...have to wait for last min call again...
sienz...vv sienz...today really sienz..can fatt mou...just now went out yam char again with the same gang...haihz...oso sienz lar...ntg to do...so i went home earlier so i can online...so far,i need to do all my tutorials...especially FAP...cuz i'm presenting on monday =(

it is time

been talking on the phone with ryan again...talked for an hour plus...yeah...it was hell long...lolz...we discussed on problems persists...he knew that what he was doing...he knew lots...and i just understands he doesnt know how to express it...well...sud i set a dateline or sud i just let it flow like how george said??
i havent asked JL yet...i sud have talk to him first...there's lotsa things ryan told me today...he's starting to open up to me bit by bit...it's time for me to change...a new me,a new personality,a new characteristics...from external to internal
yes...in the previous post,i said cy told me i had changed...i guess tat isnt good enough...so i had decided to change even more...i aint gona care bout anyone anymore...with exceptions ofcuz...i will continue to give concern to my best buddies..
i'm not gona be sticky anymore to any1...it is finally time to change...haihz...on the other hand,i still dont know if i should set a dateline or not...when the time comes,i will let go of everything =) then no1 will suffer right? yeap...then yes,it is =) i am already independent...now,i must learn how to be strong and be even more mature...

randomzz

today i was late again...i skipped first class...haihz..it's only week 3 of sem 2 =( attendance not nice jor =( haihz...and i purposely do my corporate law & governons tutorial lor...damn sad lar...
planned to swim today...who knows,it was such good weather in the morning and suddenly it was raining cats and dogs in the afternoon...so we didnt go for it =( i purposely dun wana swim ytdy nite de lor...haihz...suan liao...
as usual...it was raining,i fetch chai yen bek...then we had our gal's talk...she told me that i had changed a lot when compared to last time with louis...i noticed that too...just that i wanted to protect myself...i dun wana hurt once more...once is enough...moreover,i experienced twice...anyway,that's good she said...and she preferred to have me in this way =)
i dun have new pic nowadays...cuz of the outings with diff gang...sat will have loads...cuz will be going out with feli...guess what,she's driving...hohoho...a bit scare lar..hahah...and she loves taking photos...so,i get to update my fb again =)

satisfied~!!!

yes...indeed,i am...the results were released today...i was so happy...i thought i will either fail or pass the paper...especially business law paper and managing information system...but i get an A and business law was B+...hahaa...it was out of my expectation =)
heheh...just one word...hyper-ing now...hahah...and another thing was,we discussed of going to taiwan...this trip package is go for 22days like that...bout 1 month..so,we can only go on long term break =) not only that...we did discussed on going to genting
we had already discussed earlier on...but that time i was still with louis,so i couldnt make it..and now,it's just us gals without boys =) yuen's bf is at UK...cy was like wana break now..me and lynn is single...so yeah...it's like a single ladies trip =) cant wait for it...
the only prob is,who will be our camera man?? hmmm...we will share 1 room together cuz there's just 4 of us...well,as usual,i'm afraid of those things....will be bathing with the door open or bath with either one of them...hahha...and i guess i'll be driving...not sure yet...just getting excited...hehhe..
went to steven's corner and have breakfast with mates again...as usual,chit chat and eat =) nothing much lar today..started to concentrate on my studies...alright,gtg...need to finish up my corporate law & governons tutorial =)

Day before exam results are release

argh...u can imagine how nervous i am...yes,tomolo the results will be out...i just hope that i can pass every single subject...especially law,financial acc,managing info system and managing acc fundamentals...haihz...just pass is enough...vv gan jiong..
today nothing much ler...supposed to go for swimming but it's raining...haihz...health and fitness campaign 2009 begins today...they had lotsa activities...like bodycombat,yoga and etc...they even hired intructors from true fitness pavilion...u can see,it's vv happening...they're giving out free gifts and samples too...yoghurt drink,yoghurts,milo fuze,nescafe,nesvita and so on..
i had piano class in the morning then headed to meet up my group members for breakfast...sorry that i'm late guys,my class ended late...we ate bak kut teh...yum yum...too bad,lynn didnt join us...there's lotsa things my dear chai yen told me today...as usual,i'm the listener =)
after that,we drive to college and headed to the library...lynn was waiting for us there to discuss our assignments on auditing...as usual,i'm the most 3 8 amongst them and chai yen was in rank 2...hahah...yeah,keep talking rubbish,playing and laughing like a hyena...haha...love all my peeps..i pray for every1 so that we will pass our exams tomolo =)

1st day of the week

it's monday again...as usual...kinda slow...and tired...lolz...went out with ca guo and chai yen today...went to tropicana city mall...we sit down and chat a while then only headed to the movies...catching up with an old fren...he looked diff..better =) watch pandorum...nice show..yet scary again..
i felt that i kept watching horor movies nowadays...lolz...dun care lar...as long as there's movies for me to watch...then after tat i went back home...cuz dad need the car...wondered what car will i be driving to college tomolo...will it be bmw?? cuz this few weeks i kept driving toyota wish...and dad wanted to bring it to service..other than that,i had no other cars..
ryan is beginning to be more concern of me...i'm happy of that =) it's becuz i USED to fall for him...b4 that,he treat me like normal only...but this few days,his different =) but is it too late? too late for everything that had ended? or shall i give it another try?
i guess i better not =) single is good for me now...lalala...boring boring boring...i just got a good news from ACCA...guess i'll be graduating early than i expected it to be =) it's good...time saved,movey saved and my youth oso saved...haha...most importantly,i can go out to the real world =)
bout class mates...nothing much happen...as usual...laughing and being 3 8 is our main activities..guess who's the most famous among all of us?? hahha...the answer is damn obvious...there's a conflict in between one of our mates..the story is too long to write it down..so i guess i better not...pics of us in class will be post up soon =)

saturday night again

well...once again,it's end of the week...was planning to go to genting earlier...like bout past few weeks...but plan canceled...then i suggested going to my hometown's waterfall with ryan,mk,may,kat and joyce...but plan canceled too...wanted to go sungkai...but kat,joyce and mk went edi earlier as the same date team secret go...
so...the plan was like kinda last min...ryan asked me go sing k...but as u guys noe,i hate to sing k...i had other plans...club was one of it...fren called in the afternoon...but all of sudden,cancel d...then as usual,i have to look for activities myself...then i got 1...is to PD for bbq and come back...
BUT the plan oso cancel...wondering why,right? well...the club plan was on again...so i told mk and gang see if they wana join...but they canceled the sing k plan cuz of me...every1 didnt go...so i felt kinda guilty...i FFK everyone and go sing k...haihz...happy now ryan? but it's not tat bad lar...did enjoy the time...ah ying and ah soon was there too...ah ying was the only one who sang the english song with me...haihz...
sang a bit of chinese..chorus part...haha...nvm lar...at least i sing mar..right?? hehe...i went to pavilion and sg wang on friday...went to do some research on skin care products...nope,it aint for my assignments...it's for my own use..wanted to chge products =)
then at night,ryan asked me out to watched sorority row...he already booked me since wed...lolz...so good of him...it's a vv nice movie...but scary too...haha...then after tat,we went to murni,ss2...yes,jeff and jane was there...from one fm =) then went to mk's hse area there yam cha...went home bout 2 sth...kinda tired..been out the whole day =)
there arent many photos now...cuz i really very lazy to upload lar..but there're some new pic in my facebook =) here's the link of it http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/bebejezz?ref=profile

Updated

i went out with kean fatt on sat...we went for dinner then movie...he was one of derrick's frens =) we watched perfect getaway...it's a good show including you understand the story...nothing much oso this few days
have been feeling upset this 2 days...dunno the reason beneath it...today i went to pei chie's blog again...she had updated on sat's activities oso...i was oso invited to that TT but i didnt go...cuz i knew he wud be there...then i saw his foto with his gf...finally they had a perfect foto...bcuz they stand closer yet not woody like b4 =) just now,i had just watched a video...it's bout forgiveness...i found what they wrote is true...they wrote "When deep injury is done to us,we never recover until we forgive...forgiveness does not change the past,but it does to the future"
i admit that the feel for my ex is still there...but it aint that strong...probably bout 10% i guess...i know what i sud do...i know that i sud be letting him go already...i know i sudn't think of him...but u have to understand too...it's a long relationship...it takes time though...let time do it's job...

things happened this 2 days...i dunno how i sud put it...i dunno what he is thinking...the word "he" aint referring to my ex now...haihz...what sud i do?? the path in front of me is real foggy...pls show me the right directions...pls tell me what i should do...should i go left,right,front or stop? stop and wait and see perhaps? i dunno too...
but i didnt put him into an important manner kind of place...but this still matters to me...i need it to make the next decision...single is still the best...will be going to zouk and phuture for the coming weeks...dun wana face "him" so much edi...will be having my usual life again...or is "he" using me?? i dunno...confused once again...i'm working hard on my diet...this brokes my records...never been doing this in the past b4...i guess both the guys,ex and "him",really gave me the motivation to keep moving forward..

promised bout the fotos...uploading soon...been lazy as usual ^^

SEM 2 WEEK 1

nothing special this few days...just went for yam cha with my ex and jl (my most respect fren)...yes,indeed...i respect jl a lot bcuz he used to help me a lot in the past no matter what prob...in my love life or my personal life...i seeks advice from him....was hyper to see him ytdy bcuz i had lotsa things to ask for his advices ^^
ntg much lar...didnt talk much to ex too...bcuz he was playing laptop...yes...he's indeed still the same...dun dare to face me...well,need not to bother much bout him lar...he's such a nuisance...always seek me for my help no matter in any kind...financial,language and so on...but when i seek advices from him,he just turned his head around...now u noe his nuisance behaviour...
this week my new sem started...basically,ntg much...but there's about 4 out of 6 subjects are 100% theory...so this new sem,i must be vv hardworking...so that i wouldn't need to suffer so much when the exam is here...
went to pavilion on wed with mates but i didnt join them...bcuz i was out with other frens...i went to DA ON again...not bcuz i miss my ex...but i just love the korean dishes there ^^ nice decor,clean environment and vv relaxing...after that,headed to starhill to have a look onn new designs bags...then came back to pavilion again...
not long,i look for my frens at NICHI...we play dressed up again...then,the cutting doesnt fit me...so we when to MNG...yes...MNG is up to new season...there's lotsa of coats...i try on a few =) it costs RM500++ per coat..i just took a pic of 1 design oni =( it's for the used of when i go to UK =)

the last day

yes,indeed...today was the last day of my work...wanted to update my blog few days ago...but due to the slow connection,i gave up...few days ago i saw Nixon...forgot how to spell his name d...i saw him at Raoul..u may be wondering who is he..well,he's one of the team leader from FJ Benjamin in Guess and many departments too,including Raoul =) it's been 2 years i haven met him...i've met all my superiors from Guess this week except for Christine,another leader...i used to admire Nixen...hahha...silly me
ytdy was mooncake festival...poor me,need to work the whole day =( haihz...so cham...i didnt celebrate lar...just another ordinary sat for me...went out with frens then yam cha wit MK...listen to his emo stories again...after that headed to another coffee shop...we drank carlsberg this time...really hate drinking beer,cuz i get drunk fast...he ordered a lot...but most of us wana go home,so we drink all of his beers...hahah
well,today was my last day of work...i slept during working hours...haha...no customers and was vv tired cuz of my late sleep...can u imagine that me sleeping there with ppl walking around?? wonder what will they think...but i guess it didnt spoil my company's name cuz i slept at other ppl's booth...ahaha..sorry "baker's cottage" and thanx for lending me to sleep over =P
still tired..went bek home late a bit cuz need to count stock,check them,repack them...putting them back into cartons...clearing the booth...and wait for the ppl to pick up the stocks...sienz...wudn't be going to lecture tomolo...hehe...wana take a day off ^^ alright,be updating again soon...

Day 13

well...it's been so long i havent online due to my working time,my outings and oso the stupid house line got prob...today i saw steven...he look diff from last time...was very shocked to see him..ahhaha..hmmm...not only that...i saw anna oso and oso the EMC from selayang springs condo...
it's like so convenient to see them there...and gori saw mr wee,our OHR tutor...a lot ppl ler...this few days oso vv fan becuz of the moving stock...haihz...be back for more...will be uploading fotos to my fb now =) those at sky bar...hehe

working days - Day 5

today is just oni day 5...i'm vv vv tired...haihz...today "THE STAR" and "CHINA PRESS" came and interviewed me for the products we are selling...this time, I'M CAUGHT RED HANDED~!!! in china press will be havin my foto...
the most kik sei part is,i had been make up-ing for the past 4 days...and it was just today i did not make up...then they came..i did,but it was light,just put mascara,not even fake eye lash... hehe...hope it will look nice...pls...gonna buy both the paper tomolo and see what they wrote ^^ not only that ler,got customer praise my eyes..he said that they're beautiful...hahah...thanks for the wonderful compliments sir ^^
BUT,no matter how tired i am,i still prefer working to studying...some ppl claimed that is becuz i haven worked b4...now i'm telling them...NO,IT'S NOT~!!! i just love to work =) yea...mayb i'm a workaholic ^^ eheh...tired...gonna rest soon

exhausted

ish...i hate today...why??~!!! bcuz gori didnt came to work and today the stocks arrive~!!!!!! argh~!!!! i hate when the stocks arrive...no matter where i work,i just hate it...have to check it...then sign...then double check it...then count stocks...then have to display them...ish...all the stupid work..
really tiring today ler =( today china press took fotos at our booth...the phototgrapher asked me to take too...but i was too shy and was low profile...haha...just dun wana appear in newspaper =) sienz...leg wana break d...ish...
dunno why today my stomach so pain...wat happen?? is it becuz i late eat?? haihz...i oso no time to eat..morning straight go work...then wait till my break time,then oni eat...sumtimes i just get orange juice and drink then sleep in car...will be updating soon =)

busy busy busy

pooh~!!!! my life is so busy right after the exam...well,the last exam was okok...i can do some of it =) then right after that i went home to get prepared to off to work...haihz...vv tired ler...stand all day...even worse than last time i worked at GUESS...
then at nite,i went to mid valley with ryan to watch movie...we watched final destination 3d...not vv nice...cuz it makes us feel a bit dizzy and the show was sienz...no point lidat...but a bit digusting...ewwww....reached home bout 2...then have to woke up early again for work...

my heels hurt me alot =( just now,joyce and ryan's bro came to buy mooncake from me ^^ hehe...happy to see them...they're going to malacca tomolo

was hoping that i could join them...but cant,work is more important...need money to pay phone bill...haihz...not only that...today i saw some beautiful watches at GUESS...diamonds around it...should i buy a leather strap 1 or a metal 1?? hard to decide...cuz they both look good on me...but i would love to have a watch from toywatch too...i have some fotos of this few days...will be uploading it soon...cuz i'm tired now...goodnite ^^

PHOTOS~!!!

All this were the photos on MK's birthday...there still are many..lazy to upload =(

LOOK at my face~!! i found a "X" on it before the day of my examination =( ugly and looked like samurai...haihz

Mk's birthday

ytdy was MK's birthday...ryan called me to go out have dinner with the birthday boy and frens..i went...we went to taman megah for seafood =) didnt ate much lar...cuz i had dinner earlier with my "mum"...then after the dinner,we were planning our next stop...
our decision was to watch "where got ghost" at cineleisure...but it was too late and most of them had meetings on the next day...so we didnt watch...then i saw gori there...so ngam ler...lolz...gori was with ryan cousin~!!! such a small small world...
then we wanted to go to The Library...before this,it was known as Mystique...but chge jor...took a few fotos...didnt went in...cuz it was a bit sienz...wah a kor and ah ying with her bf went home...the rest of us went to yam cha at kota damansara...lotsa boutiques ler...might visit there some day =) nothing much then...just chui sui and get to understand each other more =) then we went home...
tomolo i'll be having the last paper~!!! HURRAY~!!! right after exam,i'll be off to work on the same day itself...then after work,i'll go watch movie with ryan,MK,May,Joyce and ryan's bro...gona watch Final Destination 3D~!!! FINALLY~!!! bcuz of exams,i didnt get to watch those new movies =( i wana catch up~!!! lolz...will be uploading the fotos later =)

Photos of ZOUK & PHUTURE

Before club

Yew Mun

Robert

Wayne

me,yew mun,carol and sabrina

Meet my dance partners for the night~!!!

ceiling of reflection =)

Both Japanese =) Sabrina & Sean
i drank a lot in here

Gavin the b'day boy and the japanese gal ^^

Love her~~~

the last min pic =)
just right after a boom boom shake shake ^^

the recovery period of mine

i'm still in the recovery period...getting better tho...but sumtimes things that i dun wana noe,they just came to me either from his mum or his frens..can it not be like this way?? as i said,there are some things which is better left unknown...not knowing and not wanting to know is the best...
today his mum show me fotos of his gf and even the mooncake...i had this vv weird feeling going thru...this feeling is almost similar to my upset stomach...haihz...suan le bar...i told his mum that after i get my salary,i bring her go eat good stuffs ^^ hehe
went out with her today...went for deserts and ate vegetarian...nice too...today sth horrible happen...this is the first time i see her cry...haihz...hope she'll be better =(
later MIGHT be going to movies with pierre...lol...today fd called...i tot he was some1 else...hahah...pai seh...he just doesnt sound like him ler...his voice,chge d...hmmm...good i guess...really a bit man jor...alright...i wana upload fotos d...u'll see them in my next post =)

HIP HIP HURRAY

ok...first things first...bout my test today...erm erm...good news is that...finally it's over...hahaha...not vv easy...not vv tough...consider can do lor...just hope will pass oni...i had been sleepless for 2 nights edi...my brain is aching now...i can feel it's touching my skull....givin me a headache...
might watching movie tonite and tomolo's MK's b'day ler...mayb celebrating with him too...hehehe....not sure yet...i wana watch lotsa movies...must catch up =) hehe...had been really stressful this 2 days...i had never study like this before...the latest i sleep was 4am if i were studying...but now...OMG...i broke my own records...lost the appetite too...it's good =) but not good is,i feel like vomitting..haihz
alright...after friday,this sem is over...the worst thing i heard from my frens in this sem was....ENGLISH STANDARD drop...yes...i know...when i do presentation,i was not as confident as before...why ar? they also say woan yuen's and hwee lynn's standard drop too =( in chinese is call "shui zun" and translate to english is......water level...ahhaha...funny lar...well,i promised myself that i will improve my english and polish them well before i go to UK...
MIGHT be next year...i just said might be...lol...dun ask y...sumtimes,living in malaysia is not as good...becuz memories are all here...but i oso dun wana leave too soon...will be missing my frens...haihz...hard choice...will be uploading those zouk and phuture's foto tonite ^^

DAY 2

*phew* today...when i read thru the question paper,i was soooo happy...it's becuz all the tips my fren gave came out and i was oni focussing on the tips...this fren that gave me the tips was my senior...same age but he went for january intake...it is so nice of him giving me the tips ^^
i didnt sleep the whole night ytdy...and i plan to do the same thing again tonite due to tomolo's paper...BUSINESS LAW and TAX....argh~!!!! but it's ok lar...i slept in the afternoon d and after the papers tomolo,i can sleep all i want~!!! YAY~!!! received pierre's call right after the exam...hmm..ntg much lar...just told me that he just reach malaysia =)
but another sad thing is that i'm not feeling well...i guess it's cuz of the sleepless nite...my neck was in dreadful pain and when i'm driving,need to turn and look at the side,it hurts a lot~!!! damn...not only that,my stomach hurts too...i was just trying to stand during the exam...and it still hurts now...just that my neck pain had reduced...but my stomach...haihz...i can feel that it's the muscle that hurts...whenever i breathe or touch or even lie down on my bed,it hurts me...haihz...
but after tomolo...everything will be alright ^^ saying for the week: do not let anyone to become everything in your life...becuz if they leave,you'll have nothing...

The Fight for it

argh~!!!! i didnt sleep again...was studying the whole nite...i'mm vv tired and sleepy...everything that i read just cant go in my brain =( i just hope to pass oni...haihz...god bless me...and my neck hurts a lot...dunno what happen...like got bump lidat...really vv pain...it's 6.40am in the morning...i must continue to study~!!!! wish me luck~!!!

Zouk & Phuture

Lol...was suppose to go to Poppy and Sanctuary last nite...but plans canceled...cuz dear quinny say no kaki...and i know i cant go in poppy...so didnt get to join MK and gang...so finally i follow robert to zouk...
when we entered,they check our body temperature by scaning at our forehead...damn...vv yong sui lar...the starting was not vv good as usual...just drink first...they bought black label...hmm..feel not vv good taste cuz it's like no taste at all..prefered hennessy =) waiting other gals to arrive...then my other frens sms me and ask where i am...and they're just at phuture...so we met at the toilet and they bring me to their table...happening enuf =) was drinking and chit chatting for some time...then i feel it's time to go back to my own table...and i saw other gals arrive jor ^^
wuhooo~~~~ we start to move move shake shake all nite long..haha..both of us was vv crazy...love carol~~ she was my dance partner all nite long...we went home as soon as the lights were on and music stops..time passes so fast...will be uploading the fotos on tuesday cuz as i said b4,the worse war will be starting tomolo and ends on tuesday =( it was vv nice there...first time went there...cooling...lolz...had a great nite ^^

plan cancel

well...today was supposed to meet up with my ex...but it was cancel bcuz he said he's vv tired...well,i understands...cuz he was vv drunk last night...he called me...i knew he was drunk thru his voice...drunk yet sober...i asked him if he were to call the wrong person...but he knew who i was..well...sober enuf to chat =)
but...as the chat go on...it is not as good...he's bull shit-ing...talking rubbish...dun feel like talking to him anymore...wanted to hang up but it is really rude to do that...warned him not to talk yet he still continue...huh~!!!! kik sei....once again he made me cried last nite...haihz...stupid me....it's not worth anymore...
i'm at station 1 now...vv bored...tired and sleepy too =( was surfing the net...and i saw sth vv interesting in msn.com...

http://lifestyle.msn.com/relationships/articlecosmomatch.aspx?cp-documentid=21429010&GT1=32023

have a look at the site i posted...it's about how to survive a break up...it's really useful i feel...bcuz i had tried this 2 years ago =) the worse war has yet to come...on monday and tuesday will have the worse exams ever...wonder those who set the exam timetable have the brain or not to think bout how students gonna study...DAMN~!!! we'll be havin Mananging Information System,Business Law and Taxation on both that day...haihz...it's all memorizing subjects =( hope that i can pass it all and hope everything will be over as soon as possible =(

Already gone

Song title : Already gone
Singer : Kelly clarkson
this song really is meaningful...below are the lyrics...it's like wat my ex trying to say and what i trying to answer...even though i had let go,but this is what i would like to say if it was me in the past....the blue 1 indicates him and the pink 1 is me...

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Love~~~

My Baybee Prince~~~yesterday i tot once again i had lost my precious ones...i had edi lost one of them...and now,i oni left with one...the one i'm talking about is my baybee chocolate =) ytdy he was nowhere to be found...called out to him,but he didnt come to me...i burst into tears that can make a pool full...but at last,my maid told me he was under the bed...lolz...silly me...i used to have 2 of my loved ones...but now,1 left edi...so this is the only 1 left...

u may think that i'm crazy...but my baybee,he do understand wat i'm talking and he do listens...he just cant speaks...i remembered i fell down once...bleed alot...he came near me...i tot he was trying to lick me as usual...BUT he didnt...he look at my injuries and then sit beside me...such a good baybee he is =) proud to have him...

ytdy,my darling yuan call me...hahah...she called at 3 sth in the morning...both of us are not asleep yet =) i tot she came back to kl...hahha..silly me...both of us kept lafing...didnt talk much,bout 8++mins...cuz i wana sleep...i cant stand it anymore...i had been sleepless for so many nites...and i woke up at 8 sth preparing for my revision class that i made up =) alright...i have to go...if not i'll be late for the breakfast with them ^^

Terrified

OMG~!!!! this morning i woke up LATE at 8.15 and my exams starts at 9.00....argh~!!! i was rushing...luckily when i reach there,it was oni 8.45...i felt that i'm vv lucky bcuz i'm still able to wake up even the last min...today's paper was English for Business...it was hard on section A...haihz....even Jonathan says it's tough....just hope i may pass everything...
after that,i went to 1u with robert...we went to forever 21...i tried on total of 4 dress...when i came out...i saw him paying on the counter~!!!! OMG~!!!! i didnt noe he'll buy for me...vv gam dong ler ='( then after that,we went to dragon-i for our breakfast which is lunch for other ppl =) we ordered a fried rice,he ate a steam rice with sth,egg with fish and scallop and my fav xiao long bao ^^ hehehe...was vv happy indeed...
then we went to maxis centre...and i asked bout the line...well,they said need the main line owner to go to the maxis centre with me...then i asked is it come here...then they say nope...their's is only maxis dealer...haihz...so troublesome ler...bcuz i dun feel like seeing my ex anymore...not now at least...
right after that,we went home...didnt get to watch movie becuz i was freakin tired...i even slept in his car...haiz...i'm sick now...headache is gone but having sore throat and a lil bit heaty feel...

reasons i blog

there are some ppl who don't understand why i blog...well,there are some few reasons...i blog becuz i wana keep those memory...i'm a vv forgetful person...i'm afraid to lose all those wonderful things...that's why i wrote them here =)
2nd,i blog becuz i wana express my feelings...when i hate some1 or love them,i cant tell them face to face...becuz some ppl might mistaken me for prejudice them...it happened before...sometimes,i say out becuz changes might be good =) those who know me well,they noe i'm very straight forward....cheerful,sensitive,aggressive,bad tempered but kind oso lar =) tat's my personalities...my mood is vv easily affected...i can be very happy in this moment but i can be sad in the next....it changes vv fast...ppl around me notice it too...only my best frens noe what problems i'm facing becuz i keep all of them vv deep inside my heart...when cy and hl first noe all bout my prob,they were shocked becuz i laf and smile in college all the time but in the same time,facing lotsa problems...they didnt noe tat i had lotsa things to fan and yet i can be so cheerful
3rd,i blog becuz it's like no1 listen to what i'm saying...did u notice that b4 that,i didnt update my blog a lot?? it's becuz there's always some1 whom i can talk to...whom listens to me...whom gave advice,opinion or even scold me...but not now anymore....that particular person had left my life for a month and more...and now,i'm alone...
tomolo i'll be having english paper...still studying on those format of letters and memos...wish me luck then =)

For u

this post is actually written for you...i had been chatting with you for the whole morning...nothing much but in the end...there's a mix feeling come upon me...i dunno how to describe it...u said tat u used to love me vv much...i noe tat and i can feel tat too...ur frens say tat u patch back with me bcuz u felt boring...but when we're together i noe u used ur real heart to treat me...
actually after breaking up with you,i tried to cover it up from my dad...i tried to go out every sat nite...try to find activities....it's hard for me tho...cuz i had rejected a lot of ppl...and my coll frens,they had their own life with their bf...i just not get used to it...but eventhough i'm not used to it,it's oso a must right?? haihz...there's always a reason for my behaviour and my act...as u noe,i'm not a bitchy type....now u said that i had chged...i chged becuz u made me too...and i chged becuz of you...
all of sudden you ask bout the ring...i didnt asnwered u properly bcuz i wana noe wat u wana ask...i tot u want it back...but luckily u didnt say that...u just said that keep it nicely...i will keep it in good condition and thank you for the present...that is a promise from me to you...becuz of that last sentence of yours,my tears drop again...once again the tears drop is becuz of you...it's been long i never cried for you...i noe there's no more chances of us being together as you had a new gf....but i will still give u my blessings...i hope that both of you will be happy together...take care...

this was the last pic we took together...at Jogoya...though the ending was not wat i wanted,but still i had no choice but to let you go...

Movie

today ntg much happen oso lar...just study and online...normal life...then at nite went to movie with ryan...we watched "the unbelievable"...oh well...this movie is actually a bit scary but no ending de ler...vv sienz =( i wana watch "orphan"...looking for some1 to go with me...then after that went to yam char...
guess who i saw at 1u's arcade??? JORDAN LEE...argh...he ask how am i and had i meet louis...i say no ler =) he also asked am i alone...then i point to ryan...hahah...he tot he's my bf...i say no lar...just frens =) didnt noe could meet him there...we went to the arcade cuz ryan wana play car racing...jordan was playing too...but he left early...then not long,we leave too...and i saw jordan again at 1u's gsc there...lolz...i guess the reason to play in arcade oso same with us gua...which is to pass the time before the movies....it's edi 3.30am...and i had nothing to update anymore...will be back for more =)

the fotos

Let the pictures do the talking =)

Before going to club ^^

Me and ryan

argH~!! I'm a bit drunk =(
a bit drunk,reddish face and i still manage to take a foto of me

Sanctuary night

ohh...well...last nite went to sanctuary with ryan and MK and frens...reach home bout 3am edi..ytdy i'm kinda drunk...vv vv dizzy...tat's the first time i drink till like this...they bought 2 bottles of henessy...even last time when i was with my ex,i didnt drink till like this de...well....it's all MK fault's...lolz...
at first,it was kinda sienz lar...cuz of the songs..but as the alcohol go into my blood vessel,it's getting high...hahah...gotta boom boom shake shake all nite long...hehe...May took some fotos of me and ryan...ryan was vv drunk last nite...we went out of the club and he keep heading to the toilet...then we stand outside there at the corridor...he VOMIT~!!!! argh....i was there keep acompanying him...i dunno what to do...i wanted to look for his bro...but i cant just dump him there...then i took his fon from his pocket...all of sudden,his bro called...argh~!! finally =) then his bro and MK help to carry him to the car...May took a pic of him of being a drunker....hahha...
right now...i'm with ryan and MK again...at friends cafe...onlining...updating my blog...nothing much lar...my stomach kinda pain...dunno why ler...haihz...i will upload the fotos later =) cuz i'm kinda lazy...hahaha...
oohhh....i forgot to mention bout my "P" sticker...it's gone...hahha...gone here means,no more "P" licence =) heehhe...vv happy ler...

Untitled

Forgive me for not putting a proper title...cuz i also dunno what title i sud put...lolz...it's 5.50 am in the morning...yeah...i'm still awake...trying to finish off my revision...there's still abit more...argh~!!! why am i not feeling sleepy?? hmmm...weird...normally i sleep like a pig XD lolz...

it's so quiet now...cold too...off my aircond d...then ntg much to do,having a break time...i went to pei chie's blog and have a look again...well,this time i saw my ex's with his gf's foto there...i noe u're gonna ask how i'm feeling...well,i do feel suprised too bcuz i felt ntg...lolz...but happy for them...bcuz earlier this,his gf msn PM's msg was kinda emo...but now,everything was in happy ending...except me =( i do still think of tat nite's situation that i had done sth stupid and made me regret...and i'm gonna have my exam in less than 10 hours...lolz...

and i still thinking what to wear for sat nite's partay...i think after exam,straight go shopping then wear the new cloth straight to club...the oni thing i dun like is,ryan and frens haven decide which club to go and tat even makes it harder for me to decide which cloth to put on...as u noe,i wear accordingly to the environment =) high class places,i wear high class a bit lor...and my heels to match with ^^ ooh...last fri,i bought 2 pairs of new shoes ^^ lurveee all my precious heels ^^

actually,i have more than 6 pairs..i just dun have the time to foto them up ^^ i noe u'll say that i'm crazy...but to be more precise,u sud say i'm a heels lover ^^ alright...back to my study again

The War

lolz...yeap...THE WAR as in my FINAL EXAMINATION will be starting on the 5th of sept which is tomorrow...at 2pm~!!! and i'm still blogging here...argh~!!! am i really prepared for it??? i vv afraid instead...nvm...just try my best to answer every questions =) i just need a pass...tat's all...my coursework marks will help pull my grades up...
GAMBATEH to myself and all my fellow frens =)
and i just got home from station 1...went for yam cha with ryan and MK =) look at the time now...it's edi 2am...alright,i need to finish this off and do my last revision...i guess tonite i no need to sleep again =( but thinking of tomolo's partay,i'm energetic again...hahah...yea...i'm a weirdo...
tat's all for now ^^

don't ever look back

yeap...as stated in my title...never ever look back instead,look forward and keep moving forward...but humans is always like that..they're always looking at the past...but there's an advantage too...looking back remind us of what we did and we should learn from mistakes ^^ but some humans,tend to look back not becuz of this reasons instead,they look back unwilling to let go the past...
well...at this hour,i'm at coffee bean studying due to my neighbour's house renovation...i just cant study with all the noise there...enjoying ice blended mocha =) lolz...but it's friggin cold here =(
btw,there's 2 handsome caucasians here sitting right beside me...hahah...too estatic...lolz...alright...gtg study d =)

Sayings for today :

Saying goodbye isn’t the hard part, it’s what we leave behind that’s tough..Don’t keep holding on to something you have already let go of... “Parting is such sweet sorrow”~by William Shakespeare