11052010 : today is the day of our examinations results released...ofcuz i'm nervous bout it...but i didnt get to checked it until i'm back from piano class...piano teacher praised that i had improvements...well,this is not it...it's just tat sth's weird...i hadnt been practicing for more than a week and she praised...the other weeks that i practiced till my fingers bleed,she didnt say a thing to me at all...
went home,ofcuz the first thing i did is log on into the tarc website...i'm just so nervous,so afraid,hands sweating,heart's beating faster than ever...it's the time i shall checked my results and i passed all~!!! i'm happy...so as before,i told bie tat i wanted to go tenji because i hadnt been there since their opening...i msg up steven bout it and later on,i received a call from yuen...and we'll be heading there tomolo...so this is it~!! FOTOS~!! hahaha...
all 3 things had made me happy...so here comes the final one...the most important one as well...sweetheart promised me something...something that i requested as well but he didnt realized it until i say out...bie,i wana say,no matter how fragile i am...i'm ready to listen to whatever things...and EVERYTHING as well...i rather heard from you than from 3rd party or than i found out myself =)
Her holidays she spent with him (09052010 - 10052010) :
actually we're planning to go kuala terengganu bcuz bie said the sunset there is very beautiful...but we changed course to kuantan...and i love beach so much that i hope we could stay nearby a beach...listening to the waves and all...it makes me felt so relaxing...
the opening is very excited as u read on...but i couldnt continue anymore because it was a holiday that we didnt get to go...this was because bie received an urgent call and he had a show to do at putrajaya...so ended up,i just went to his hse to overnite...yes,i'm very disappointed but at the same time,i can do nothing...with all hopes of going to holiday with him,and now we couldnt...
on the very same morning which was bout 1am plus on sunday,we almost had a fight...he was in hot tempered,raising up his voice...but all i can do is to keep myself calm and kept telling myself that he was in a bad mood because he didnt have enough sleep...i sud understand him and all...
i was there finally early in the morning bout 5am i reached...before that,he did msg me up,a very long 1...apologizing for raising his voice and he said sth very sweet =) he was there to cuddle me up in my sleep...
woke up bout 11am plus...he need to set off to work...and as for me,i went to leisure mall to meet up with yuen...steven came to fetch me up...and surprisingly,he knows the way =) and when i found out,his ex stays nearby..haha...his life is very much alike with bie from the stories i heard...while waiting for him to reach,this is wat i did...hahah
looked like teacher,right? i'm not AV ar...ish~!! 
both of us trying to act as tho we're selling sony ericsson phones XD
driver of the day with my glasses
yes i know i looked ugly...cuz i didnt put on make up...not a single thing...even the basics i didnt apply...haha...i reached home bout 5plus...and i thought of going for a swim...becuz it's just so boring sitting at home...i even asked his dad to come along...haha...it's still manners lar...
halfway thru,i get stomach cramped and i stopped...laying down on those long chairs,trying to get tanned as well...i still cant stand it anymore...so i went home...i guess i was too hungry...cuz i ate a few pieces of crackers and the pain's gone...sweetheart still hasnt get home...and i had nothing to do...
took some fotos after the bath =P
so i checked up his lappie after my bath...now,this is the part where all my depressions starts...i first starting to look at his conv with hl...he talked bout ernest...and i just read on...i wasnt angry or wat...i was just hoping that he could tell me everything tat bothers him to me...just anything and everything...it's like before when we're together...it makes me feels that i'm important to him...but instead,he didnt...i felt i'm so useless...that i couldnt do anything at all...i never did a thing successful for him before...it's NEVER...i felt that i'm a failure as his gf...i'm just a lil bit unhappy...
i put tat aside,i was planning to ask him when he get back home...so continue reading some chat boxes of those ppl i know...i saw sth which i didnt know how to react...it just strucks me...i called and ask him but he couldnt hear and there's a waiting call tat he needs to pick up...i was all alone in the room...thinking how and why could he do this to me...i cried...i cried so much that his blanket went wet,so much tat my eyes hurts...but still,it's the heart that hurts the most...
when i went up to take a tissue,he opened the door...the first thing i did is pushed him away and rushed to the toilet...luckily daddy and mummy didnt saw that...i know because they were outside sending their grand children home...staying inside the toilet for some time and i heard plates noises...and i tot he's in the kitchen...so i came out of the toilet and went back to the room...there i saw,he was laying down there...i didnt wished to discuss...
but we talked right after the dinner...by tat time,i still have a 70 of trust and 30 of suspicion...he went to bed early...and i was onlining...chatting with yuen and steven...telling her wat happened...i just needed some fresh air badly and tat i told them i wana get out of the hse...at first,they're trying to convince me to stay home...but tat doesnt works...so we went to sg long to yam cha...i just informed bie and i left the hse around 12am...
i needed someone to talk to so much...yuen was there,listening and she ask me to put tat 30 away...sigh...and we kena roadblock...i didnt had the licence cuz i was driving bie's car and the licence was left at the guard hse...i used yuen's ic and licence to act as mine and as for her,she used my ic as hers...surprisingly,the police didnt notice and they set us off...yuen was so nervous,i am as well..haha...
we sit and talked till 2sth oni we left...steven was so worried bout me...but yuen trying to calm him down by saying,"dun worry,she'll be fine becuz she's been thru tougher days than you ever imagine"...haha...i guess it did work...but guys,thanks for the accompaniment,esp you yuen...it's so late and u did come out for me =) you could imagine how heart broken i am,how pain it is,how suffocating it is...i still couldnt sleep when i reached home,so i just looked at his face...with the lights off,i still can see clearly...it reminds me of how we started back then...and in the end,i've chosen to trust him
i fell asleep and i woke up the next morning at 10...cuz he woke up,that's wat make me awake...he went to work tat day as usual...i'm staying home,hoping tat he'll be home early cuz it's my last day there...i went out to have breakfast with yuen at kfl hawker centre...
yuen went to work as well...so i just have to go home...i had ntg to do...i'm just too bored and too free...seeing his room in a mess,i planned to sweep the whole house...and i did...washed his clothes...and it rains after that,so i have to help mummy take the dried clothes and put it in...bie did warned me not to fold the clothes,and i listen...i even clean up his cupboard and his table...wanted to went for a swim,but it's raining =(
so while waiting,i took a nap...tat was 4sth i rmb...cuz i didnt sleep well the night before...bie called at 6sth saying he's off...i'm happy...so i prepared myself and just wait for him to reach home...we had dinner and i'm staying a lil while longer then only i went home...as i wanted to see him a lil longer,we went to mamak to have his supper...haha..
only the ones who hurt you,can heal your pain ♥
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